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Single mother looking for dept. assistance in college

I am a single working mother trying to finish college and qualify for no daycare help and am falling further into dept.

Beautyfull_21
Here since: Feb 15, 2007
Female, 22
College student
03031, New Hampshire, USA
Languages: English
snobunny
Here since: Oct 31, 2006
Female, 33
college student
rolla, Missouri, USA
Languages: english
hI MY NAME IS STEPHANIE I AM A SINGLE PARENT WITH 3 CHILDREN, I AM A FULLTIME COLLEGE STUDENT SEEKING MY DEGREES IN CRIMINAL AND PSYCHOLOGY WITH ONLY A FEW SEMESTERS LEFT, I JUST GOT A NEW JOB, I GUESS EVERYONE HAS IT ROUGH, BUT I AM TAKING A DIRASTIC PAY CUT JUST TO BE ABLE TO KEEP A ROOF OVER MY BABY'S HEAD, I HAVE 3 AGES 15,9, AND 6. I DON'T HAVE THE SLIGHTEST IDEA WHERE I AM GOING TO GET HELP AND I FEEL REALLY SAD THAT I AM IN THIS POSITION, BUT I GUESS IT HAPPENS TO THE BEST OF US, IN BETWEEN JOBS MY ELECTRIC AND GAS IS ABOUT TO BE TURNED OFF AND RENT IS COMING DUE I AM TRYING EVEN NOW TO GET THAT TAKEN CARE OF. ANY HELP WOULD BE A BLESSING AND WOULD BE MUCH APPRECIATED. ANY AMOUNT WOULD HELP, I NEED TO COME UP WITH 500.00 THAT IS 400.00 FOR MY RENT AND 100.00 FOR MY UTILITIES, THE UTILITY COMPANY DOES NOT SHOW ANY LOVE.  I HAVE TRIED TO TALK TO THEM WITH A PROMISE TO PAY NOTE BUT AS I SAID THEY DO NOT SHOW ANY LOVE. PLEASE IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME AND MY CHILDREN THANK YOU IN ADVANCE AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOURS
Voicetek
Here since: Dec 9, 2006
Male, 27
Childcare Worker - Elementary school kids
Hamilton, Ohio, USA
Languages: English

Hello, I'm a 26 yr old college student trying to support myself financially.  Not only am I going to school full time, but I also work everyday with elementary school kids doing an after school program.  I try to earn enough money to pay my bills and what's left of my tuition bill that's not covered with grants.  Sometimes things get rough and money runs out before my bills get paid.  I'm living pay check to pay check right now and it gets scary sometimes especially since I know I have to go to school and I have to go to work, I can't just do one or the other.

Croger
Here since: Feb 6, 2007
Male, 21
College Student
Towson, Maryland, USA

Im currently enrolled at Towson University, and am a full time student, trying to graduate with a Bachelors degree in Economics, but currently I am watching the bills pile up, and am struggling to work at my job and complete all the work neccessary for my classes. I need to find some help for paying the school bills, including books and tuition, ive taken out loans and am working as much as I can, but any additional help would be a Godsend. Thanks and God bless

Full-time college Student who would love to smile at Graduation

I am a 22 year old full-time college student in New York, and will be graduating in May. The problem is I am uninsured and cannot afford dental work that would enable me to speak to others much less smile at graduation. I have been on medicaid in the past a had dental work done, but it has just exacerbated the problem. One dentist did a root canal and then just stuck Temperin in the space, needless to say it did not last long and now the front tooth has broken. I have tried financing options but do not have the credit necessary to secure plans like care credit, captial one. I need extensive dental work, but would be happy with just the front tooth fixed. My mother and sister also struggle with dental problems, and have encountered the same problems I have. My hope by posting this plea is to find a dentist or someone to help my family and me get the dental care we desparately need. We have worked hard, but this is one expense we cannot take on by ourselves. Any assistance that could be provided would be greatly appreciated.

momtrying2makeit
Here since: Apr 26, 2008
Female, 25
Homemaker for now
Hilo, Hawaii
Languages: English

I am here because I am a young, smart, dedicated mother of 2 very smart loving kids. I have come to a point in my life where the man that I trusted with our lives just decided to leave us with nothing. It is sad because he controlled everything and could care less about me and our kids well being. I have been a stay at home mother and I do not have any unnecessary bills. All I have is rent, utilities, food, car insurance and very little money for anything else. I want to go back to school to make something of myself but there are other things that stand in my way. I need a job but no one here will take a chance on me because I havent worked and I have no experience. I need money for everyday living and it makes it harder when I want to work and go to school and then I need money for a babysitter that I can trust with my kids. I am just so stressed that I cannot provide the things that I need for my kids. I here all the time about people going into debt and well I dont want to do that to myself or my kids. I want to have some stability for themand myself but it seems like I am getting nowhere and well the money that I still have will not last long. I am not sure what I am asking for I just know that I need help. I want to find a job at home but I cant invest the little money that I have. I have sold alot of my things to make more money and well that in itself makes me sad. I just really need something to help me get by. I would really love it if this site is real and well I am not afraid to talk to someone that is real and not looking to add to the stresses that I have. I am just so afraid that my kids will have to see the harsh realities of. I want to give them a roof over there head but I can only afford a few more months and I really dont know what to do. I just dont want them to feel in secure. I want the simple things in life but no one is willing to give me a chance to prove myself to them. Life is hard but it seems to want to keep me down rather than letting me and my family prosper.

 I have a list of things that I "WISH" I could have but then again I am not to lazy to make my wishes come true. I just need some help to be stabel enough to give my kids a home.I live in a small apartment and well to better understand my situation I am pretty much living off of 1500 a month and my rent is more than half that amount. I cant get a deposit for another place and well where I live it is a really reasonable price. My landlord is really nice and understanding but he is also struggling and well with 2 kids and we dont go shopping alot. Me and my kids have all second hand things, we eat canned goods most of the time, and we just spend time together so the good thing is that my kids dont need the fancy things to make them happy. They do want the new things but they know that I cant give it to them because I dont have the money. I would love to give them the nicer things for their birthdays and holidays but I cant sacrifice the money in that way. I am just feel so inadequate at times. I want to give them extra things because they are smart and deserve them but everything is so pricey. We rarely go to mcdonalds and when we go we only get the dollar menu thing and we go where we can get free refills. I mean that is a good thing but to have to explain to my little ones that I cant do more because mommy dont have the resources really makes me depressed. They dont know the things that I have to struggle with and I hope they never know but they see it and ask questions and I have to try and tell them something else that is positive. It becomes torture at times when they see the things that others recieve and how others indulge in the luxuries of life.

ADDED this on May 10,2008

I am really looking forward to making a life with my kids but now I am trying to find some grants that I can apply for so that I can go back to school. I am having a hard time getting a job and finding needed help. I would really love it if people could help me financially but that is a dream in it self. I understand that people dont know if I am real or not but all I can say is that I am and if someone is generous enough to help me out they would be doing a great thing. I would be happy with 5 dollars I mean every little bit helps. I have really changed so much in my life to make a honest life with my kids and it hurts me that I cant give them the things that once had. They understand the situation a little but it still sucks for them because they are so young. I want to give them some security but here in hawaii it is quite difficult. I dont know what can help me but I just really dont want to go in to debt so that is why I am asking for help before we have to suffer more with those things. I am a open person and real as can be. I am not lying and well I hope that a decent person is willing to get to know me and my family enough to see that I am not scamming anyone. I really want grants for schools and I just dont know which ones are legit. But if anyone just wants to help me in monetary things that would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading this and I hope that there are generous people out there that would like to help me and my kids in our time of need. I know there are alot out there and i probaly dont have a really hard story but I just dont want my kids to have to suffer a moment of hardships. Please feel free to respond. Thank you again

 

Nika28
Here since: Apr 10, 2007
Female, 29
College Student
Lewisburg, Tennessee, USA
Languages: English
Greetings, I have been in a struggle for half of my life. My mother died in 2005 ,but I have been suffreing from depression years before that. My mother dying is what sent me over the edge. I now take three anti-depressants because I have not been able to cope. I have not had a job in 6 years, I am disabled, and I am in a serious financial rut. I am in school and it has been so hard for me. I need to have funds to live. I do not know what else to do. I am trying to make it. I have wanted to commit suicide, but what good would that do?  I am overweight I have tried everything to get it off I need encouragement. Please Help?
Jamal
Here since: Jun 4, 2007
Male, 19
College Student
Forsetville, Maryland, USA
Languages: English

I am a poor college student who needs help paying for college.  It is hard being on your ownm with little help. I kno some people are in worste then me but i need help and i beleave that if you help one the one can help others.

thetallblonde
Here since: Nov 7, 2006
Female, 34
LPN
Boise, Idaho, USA
Languages: English
I am searching for some small bit of hope.  I have never lost my faith, I do occassionally question it.  Just a small amount of assistance would show me a light at the end of my long, dark tunnel.
cat5
Here since: Feb 5, 2008
Female, 29
Assistant Teacher
Languages: English/Spanish
Divorced mother of three/Full time college student

Hello, I'm not sure how to do this so I'll do my best. I"m a single mom of 3 children, ages 10, 8, and 6. I have been divorced now for 2 years and am having a hard time financialy with everyday life and expences. With seeing no way out but to get an education, I did it. I signed up for college as a full time student and am in my first quarter pulling A's for the first time in my life. The problem is, when I signed up for school, I thought I would be getting help through the state for things like daycare and maybe transpertation need. ( gas prices being as high as they are.) But I have contacted my local offices for help and am being told that there is no bugget for low income parents that attend college. They only help for daycare cost and things if I was working. I personaly can not handle a job, 3 kids and full time college. Plus I have went down this path already. Being on food assistence and having a  job that pays CRAP, my food stamps were cut in half. Again, this is why I am now going to college so that I can get out of the "system" and take care of my family.

I have 2 years before completion of a degree and am looking for finacial help for the whole 2 years so that I can be a mother to my children and earn an education at the same time. Does anyone out there know of any way I can barrow money or abtain a grant to pay my monthly bills for the next two years. I have very bad credit due to the divorce and have tried loans but need a co-signer. I dont have one. Sombody out there please help me.

Very poor college student

Hello,

I am a student who is 22 years old. I  have been living on my own and pay my own bills, car, insurance, rent, school, everything.   I am extremely financially restrained.  I have a personal loan from the bank I also pay every month.  I only earn about 1000 a month.  I have used the federal max for undergraduate student loans (23,000).   I have no savings, my checking account just bounced, and my credit cards are maxed.  I have 2 credit cards which I used to take care of books and those times  when my paychecks cant cover what I need.   I cannot take my financial load anymore.  Can somone tell me what I should do?  I really need help. I recently sold some clothes and collected pop cans to get by with my bills.  Soon I will go into collections if I do not pay one bill.  My rent is 350 a month plus utilities.   I am so stressed and so emotionally drained over finances that I fear for my personal health.. I only have 1 semester left to go before I graduate from college.  I know some people may think I am crazy and should not have gone to college but education is the one thing that is very important to me.   If anyone could offer me assistance PLEASE let me know, and God Bless!

 

low income family in need of housing

i am a single mother trying to get through college.  I don't make enough money to pay rent. Buying a home would give me a much cheaper monthly housing payment.

angie23
Here since: Feb 24, 2008
Female
waitress
Wife left, I'm in school, 3 kids. I NEED a better job!

My name is Mike. The company I worked for went out of business last year and I shortly found myself out of work. I had no degree and no real marketable skills. After much consideration, my wife and I decided we would tighten the family belt and I would go to school to get a degree in computer networking. I started school and at the end of the first term, (during finals) my wife stopped coming home after work. Eventually she never returned at all. She has a house in town and we see her once or twice a week. I have 3 sons; 6, 4, and 1. And i have been raising them and going to school and I recently was able to get a part time job that would allow me to work at night. My wife is finally watching the kids so that I can go to school and work, but the time she will give is very limited so I have had trouble finding work that would adequately support my boys and I. Through the use of my financial aid and loans and some help from my church and friends, I have made it since November. As we head into the summer quarter at school, I have no financial aid to help me pay my rent, and my job pays me about $100 a week. I am frantically trying to find work that will pay me around $1700- $2000 per month so that I don't have to have any help but I don't have enough to pay my rent this month. I can pay all of my other bills but I am short $750 on my rent.

Any help would be greatly appreciated by me and my boys, especially if it was a guide to a job. I have decided that I probably won't get to go back to school next year and that is okay. One day I will finish, but right now I must think about these kids and try to get a full time job that pays the bills.

My rent is $1000 and must be paid by Wednesday the 6th at noon.

Thank you for reading this and thinking about my family.

Mike

student in trubble

i am a student at Baltimore international college. i work really hard at school and finding a job that will work with me is hard. My parents  are not willing to help me and i am payiing for school on my own with loans. i am kinda in a hole with my bank and i have some bills like my car incurence coming up and i need help to get out. Please help me i have no one to turn to and iam hopeing this will help.

In Need of Support and Financial Assistance
Greetings, I am a 28 year old woman who has been in a struggle for majority of my life. I suffer from chronic depression (I take 3 anti-depressants daily) and I have not had a job in 6 years. My mother died in 2005 and I am still hurting because of it. I really do not have any support and I have at times wanted to commit suicide. I fell like everything is crashing down on me.
nyaka34
Here since: Apr 9, 2008
Female, 34
Learning and Sharing
lexington, kentucky
Languages: english
Falanas
Here since: Jul 11, 2007
Male, 20
Student
Nairobi, Nairobi, Kenya
Languages: English
I am a Kenyan citizen currently registered in a college in Nairobi,but due to lack of financial support I'm unable to continue with my studies.Please come to my rescue and enable me complete my college education.Thanks in advance.
Caprice75
Here since: May 5, 2008
Female, 23
College Student
Ames, IA
Languages: English

I need help!! PLEASE! I am in debt and I'm having a hard time getting out. I need YOUR HELP! I am a college student trying to get my degree in Criminal Justice. My life dream is to be able to volunteer to help with national/worldwide disasters when they occur, such as September 11th and Katrina, but I am in too much debt right now to afford to go....

Please, help me help others! Help me live my dream and make a difference in the world!!

I was a high school student when the World Trade Center towers collapsed and I did not have the resources to go to New York to help. I have regretted that ever since. Please, dont let this happen to me again. If you want to share a part in assisting your country and your world during its greatest times of need, now is your chance to do it indirectly through me!

If you have any questions please contact me. (cavalcade20@hotmail.com)

You can also visit my website: www.freewebs.com/thefreedomdream

Thank you so much for your donation!

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Note: This aidpage was started as a comment on "Home page of Beautyfull_21"

For some reason it wont let me type in the thingy... My Name is Sarah, I live in Southern NH... and I need some help... My Mother passed away when I was 2, which is something im not talking about... But me and my father dont talk to one another. I have been in a mess since a week ago when I was told I need to come up with my own funding for next semester or I have to leave. I have a full time job now but it isnt going to cut it. So... As much as i dont want to do this... I need some help. If you can do anything to help even twenty dollars will save my life. All I want to do is graduate and May 2008 I will be able to do that. Please help me make it. Im begging for the help... even five dollars... anything... please... Thanks you XoxxoXoXx Sarah

College student sinking in debt while trying to support herself

I am in my thrid year of college, on loans, and i have been supporting myself on my own for the past two years.  My mother is a single parent with four children, and after a messy divorce to my step-father, she wasn't able to keep helping me at school.  I work two to three jobs on campus (depending, right now I'm working two).  I also work as a sales associate when I go home for vacations.  The problem is that minimum wage at school is $5.15 an hour and I'm not allowed to work more than 20 hours a week (which I don't get anyway).  I started charging everything to credit cards so that I could afford to buy food and things I needed for school, and now I have about $3,000 racked up in credit card bills.  I am not one of those people that just shops, but I needed to look like everything was okay so that I didn't stress my mom out more than she already was (she also has two jobs).  I am wondering if there is anyone that would be interested in helping me out.  I am planning on paying off all this debt and staying with only one card, which I will use for emergencies only.  I am thought by my family to be very responsible.  I do well in school, and I also help out a lot with raising my sisters.  It's really embarassing for me to admit to this problem to my family.  What I really want is to pay it off as soon as possible.  I am even willing to pay the money back to whoever loans it (as long as it is without interest).  The main thing is getting rid of the debt before interest hits any worse.  Thanks so much for your time.

If you are interested in helping me out, but don't have any money to donate you can also help by following my link and signing up.  Here you can sign up to win free prizes, and all you have to do is sign up and complete 1 credit worth of offers.  I get credit for referring people and can eventually win money (which will go toward paying my debt).  The offers are mainly just free trials, but I get credit for every person who signs up through my link.

Makemesmile
Here since: May 11, 2007
Male, 18
College Student
Stopping the Violence Foundation
DOUGLASVILLE, Georgia, USA
Languages: english
My name is Tyrell. I am now a 17 year old student graduating High School and I have a disease called Abandoned Father. Through my young years I endured abuse and tradgedy to the point where I thought that was how everyone in the world lived. To make a long story short. 4 years ago my father stop talking to me because I had to go live with my mother. I never got a Happy Birthday, Merry Christmas or Pat on the back with the words I love you. I am writing to the world because I am the father of 2 lil girls . My sisters I do hair get them up in the morning and I am practically rasing them for them not to go into foster care. I need help with keeping up with the household duties of bills because my mother is so far gone in depression she won't even bathe. My monthly expenses are from 600 for rent to whatever to make ends meet. I am trying to keep my faith as a Christian but it seems like God wont answer. If you would like to help me go to my paypal and put in my e-mail address mscree8@yahoo.com 
marie4
Here since: Jan 20, 2007
Female, 23
student
queens village, New York, USA
Languages: english
i'm a college student that's struggling to make it by . i was stupid 2 years ago when i started charging things for my so called friends on my credit card .now that i'm broke and can no longer pays my credit card everybody left me to die. I need help please to pay this debt which is $40000 because i'm going to med school in 2 two and want to be able to get a loan. I know that is not fair to ask somebody else to help me clean the mess that i made , but i really cannot do this by myself .i realy want to go to med school because it has always been my dream to open a free clinic and provide medical attentions to people who can.t afford it . i believe that everyone in life is entitled to another chance , a second one and that why i'm asking for help today.Any little money will help.i'll also take ideas and advise on how to come ou with the money. thank you very much.
lyss1
Here since: Mar 31, 2008
Female
Student
CA
Languages: English

I am a unemployed college student who has been looking for work since December of last year and due to identity theft cannot receive Unemployment Insurance while I am searching for a job. I am in a tough spot right now and could use help of any kind.Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Pregnant
I just received news that I am pregnant! Although I am very excited, I am also very scared. I will be starting college full-time on August 27th. I am in need of money to help suppport myself and my soon-to-be baby. I am currently amployed but it is just not enough to be a full-time college student and have a baby on the way. I appriciate any help. Thank you.
Dedicated College Student in NEED of Financial Assistance!!!

Hello, I am a Kidney dialysis patient and have been for a year and half now. I was employed with the State of Florida. By me being on kidney dialysis i am not employed now. My daughter is attending college, she is 18 and currently a sophomore. Her name is Sasha. I need someone who can help us with the funding of her books, and returnong to school. As of now i have nothing to get her back up there with. I get paid once a month and after rent and utilities i have no extras. She is majoring in criminal justice. I contacted Alcee Hastings office and the mayor of my city and i can't get any open doors i have been calling and calling with no results!. If at all possible could you please help me with my daughters education. Right now getting a kidney isn't my first priority, getting my daughter through school is! i will go for a kidney later, right now i'm worried about her continuing her education... and i'm at my wits end! I would greatly appreciate it if someone could lend me any kind of assistance or advice!

Thank You So Much!

 

NEED HELP DESPERATELY
hI MY NAME IS STEPHANIE I AM A SINGLE PARENT WITH 3 CHILDREN, I AM A FULLTIME COLLEGE STUDENT SEEKING MY DEGREES IN CRIMINAL AND PSYCHOLOGY WITH ONLY A FEW SEMESTERS LEFT, I JUST GOT A NEW JOB,I START THIS WEEK I GUESS EVERYONE HAS IT ROUGH, BUT I AM TAKING A DIRASTIC PAY CUT JUST TO BE ABLE TO KEEP A ROOF OVER MY BABY'S HEAD, I HAVE 3 AGES 15,9, AND 6. I USUALLY DO OK BUT I DON'T HAVE THE SLIGHTEST IDEA WHERE I AM GOING TO GET HELP AND I FEEL REALLY SAD THAT I AM IN THIS POSITION, BUT I GUESS IT HAPPENS TO THE BEST OF US, IN BETWEEN JOBS MY ELECTRIC AND GAS IS ABOUT TO BE TURNED OFF AND RENT IS COMING DUE I AM TRYING EVEN NOW TO GET THAT TAKEN CARE OF. ANY HELP WOULD BE A BLESSING AND WOULD BE MUCH APPRECIATED. ANY AMOUNT WOULD HELP,ME AND MY KIDS ARE MAKING COOKIE DOUGH TO TRY TO MEET MY GOAL I AM SELLING IT 3 ROLLS FOR 10.00 OR 3.50 EACH I NEED TO COME UP WITH 500.00 THAT IS 400.00 FOR MY RENT AND 100.00 FOR MY UTILITIES, THE UTILITY COMPANY DOES NOT SHOW ANY LOVE.  I HAVE TRIED TO TALK TO THEM WITH A PROMISE TO PAY NOTE BUT AS I SAID THEY DO NOT SHOW ANY LOVE. PLEASE IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME AND MY CHILDREN THANK YOU IN ADVANCE AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOURS
lovemychildren
Here since: Feb 20, 2008
Female, 33
Bookkeeping
Languages: English

Ok I am here to give support, not financially though I would if I could.  First let me say I have recently taken in 3 children temporarily without any aide.  We have to pay for everything for them.  We did this as their mother is having some problems and CPS got involved.  I already have 5 children.  We have about $20000 in debt that we occurred over the years.   It was way worse as we have paid it down a lot this past year.  Just last year my husband and I split (more on that later) and I was on welfare with assistance with daycare.  He paid child support and had been for two years but with that many kids I was still able to get help for daycare. My husband and I have gotten back together.   I took a second job for 4 months beginning in January ending in April planning on saving and quitting my job to stay home this summer with my kids.  Not that my job isn't great but its an hour away and I will never be able to promote.  Its a small company with nowhere for me to go.  My plans were to stay home this summer because for four kids in daycare(ages 9,7,7,6) (one is 15) and now possible another for one of the other three kids is 10(just have to wait and see about her mom but they said they could possibly stay with us up to 6months), Anyway now no assistance as since my husband and I got back together the only thing we are eligible for is the insurance(Texas Medicaid/Chips) we make about 35000.00 together.  Anyway daycare plus gas would be almost my whole check, not to mention wear and tear.  So my plan was stay home this summer (In all of my childrens lives I have never gotten to stay home with them for more than a week vacation, so I have to say I have been so excited, I got close last year but my husband had mild heart attackand lost all of his overtime they planned to give him plus had to take it easy, then he got hurt at work). Anyway so I had planned to then try and do some babysitting in the summer, then when school starts back see if I can substitute at some of the local schools, clean houses etc..  Did I mention I have been working on my accounting degree since 2002.  So I am in my third year now and taking 9semester hours, this semester.

 Anyway now I am kinda worried that I won't get to stay home.  I already paid baseball fees, bought the gear and was looking forward to a summer with them.  Not sure though how I will be able to work though either but the savings I had from this second job was suppose to last for the summer.  Though already I am seeing it deplete with the extra money, for the 3 kids we took in, for after school events, pictures at school, their baseball fees, groceries, groceries, oh did I say groceries. So again I am not sure the solution to this as the daycare will still be as much as my pay check plus who will get the kids to their ball.  But anyway I am trying not to complain because (and here is where the support comes in!!!!!) we are still are in a pretty good place compared to the last 2 1/2 years.

 

Ok 2005 my husband and I were already on shaky ground when we lost our son.  He was shot.  My eleven year old baby taken by an idiot.  It was an idiotic thing that happened and he is in jail for involuntary manslaughter but I still cant believe how one stupid thing caused this much pain in mine, my babies, husband, and families lives, but it did.  Then my husband and I fell completely apart.  I was mad I missed all this time with my son, he wouldn't talk to me, we just drove a wedge between us.  At this time my children were 3,4,4,6,13.  So it was sad for all of us.  Then I was sick with depression for a while, not long because I had my other kids to get me going.  But it wasn't good while I had it..  I then decided I was going to quit my job as a manager working 50 to 60 hours a week, a job I hate now because for seven years it was my child and it kept me from home too much.  So I quit it proudly, with another job under my belt, dont get me wrong I know I had to work, never in my life have I not worked.  But you will never believe 6 days later my house burned down.  Yep burned down, I was atonished.  The only insurance we had (because this was the first home my husband and I bought neither of us knowing anything) was 15,000 which barely covered what we owed the bank for.  So here I am at a job making half what  I use to with nothing, not one thing.  But then I thought yes ma'am you have your five babies.  So I said forget everything else and be happy.  Then my husbad (we were still seperated) he is only 39 then has a mild heart attack.  I realized that I can't live with out him.  We starting working on it.   Now we got a mortgage and a brand new home, we started over.  If it wasn't for my 20000 in debt I know I could stay home and raise my family, I'll be honest I never wanted that till I lost my son, I am ashamed of that and realize now my children were the most important in my life.  Now my goal is to finish my degree, work from home as a CPA, we even built a small two room and bathroom on one end of my house. I have a need to be home so bad sometimes I just want to quit my job.  I just have never been irresponsible so I keep going.   I know one day I will have that dream.  Right now I can't tell you (because I would never be able to finish) all of the other things that happened that 3 years ago by themselves seemed bad but once we lost our son I just didn't think of them that way. Even my home burned down wasn't that bad to me, other than I lost all of my babies stuff, including everything that belonged to my son that died including home movies,  I got pictures but no homemovies where I can hear his laugh, see his smile.  But I got him in my heart and a day doesn't go by.

 

So for all of you people out there having a hard time.  I know its bad when you have finacial problems, I hate it right now that I am spending my savings that would make it easy for me to stay home this summer.  But would I not help these children, who are scared and miss their mother, who don't know when they are going home, would I let them take then to a town 50 miles away to stay with people they don't know, to go to school where they never been.  I think not.  I am glad to help them and don't resent them at all.  I went to the Goodwill yesterday and found a bunch of Coleman water jugs for .99 cents, now I don't know if they will be with me this summer but I bought 8, one for each of the kids. These are the nice kind and I couldn't believe my luck, and the fact they had enough for all my kids well that was my sign to buy them.  Am I real religious, no but I am working on it.  I decided if I want to see my son again then I got to make it to heaven.  I wasn't ever a bad girl, but I sure wasn't as good as I could be.  So I look for signs and have faith God is taking care of us.

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