I am 38 years old and have a daughter who is ten.  My sister passed away on 5/27/06 and I left my 40K job in Louisville to come to NC to help my parents.  She had an asthma attack at 34 and took care of my parents on a daily basis. Unfortunately, in trying to help them(my mother has MS and my father is 100% service connected disabled from the Army).  I have slipped into a deep depression, which I formally had when I got out of the Navy.(PTSD, Depersonalization, and Major Depression & Anxiety.)  lost my job in October, because I could not cope or think.  Im being honest in hopes someone will perhaps help me.  I have been able to maintain a job and fend for my daughter and myself fairly well.  It hasnt been all fun, but I am not lazy, I do have a lot of issues surrounding PTSD.  I do see a doctor and take zoloft as perscribed.  I do not do drugs and will submit to a drug test if anyone is willing to help.  Here is my circumstances:

My daughter lives with my aunt, because she is taken care of and goes to school clean and fed everyday.  At this point, I cant do it, but I miss her very badly and want to get a home for both of us.  She is very intellegent and reads on a 7th grade level in 4th grade.

My car (1995 Mazda, I tried to keep bills down) and it has probably been towed, because it died on Christmas Eve in a parking lot and I have avoided going to get it.

My family thinks Im working, but in truth I havent been able to and Im too embarassed to tell them.  My father had a stroke and has seizures and I dont want to worry him or my mother.

I worked in the Telecommunications industry in sales for a rep firm for products like computer cable, fiber, network testers and electrical industrial products for nine years.  I want to work and Im not afraid of work, Im afraid I cant do a good job until I get better.  I dont have a car to go to work and have no idea how I have managed to hide all of this from my family.  I need a lifecoach, some money and some really good advice on how to get out of my jam and greif.  I put off greiving for my sister, because everyone else seemed to need to greive.  Now, I feel better and have some energy to do something to help myself.  Sounds like a lot of drama, but it is the truth and it can all be verified.  I have included a picture of myself and daughter.  You can see I am not a slug and usually have taken care of myself.

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