Hi,  my name is bob.  I just want to let people know that I am not looking for handouts, I have a beautiful wife and four children. We do not live a bad life or a good one. We eat everyday and our bills are paid. Due to me being a complete idiot and my ex having a champhane taste with a beer budget when I was younger, I have a bad credit history, and I cant get any loans for a start up buissness. I just want to own my own buisness and let my wife stay home. I get tired of seeing my wife with her pretty little face,  walk in everyday from work,(I work also) so tired and pale with her pretty eyes staring up at me saying that one day we will own are own buissness and that she hopes that she will be able to stay home and raise are children one day. All I am asking for is someone who understands what it feels like for you to look at the women of your dreams everyday and know that you might have had a hand in ruining her life and not being able to give her the things that she deserves! I ridicule my self everyday, because I feel like I took away a bright future.   Please if there is a god in heaven, let some angel come and help us. Any little bit will help.  And I intend on paying everyone back who helps me and also help someone else out who is in need. Thats the god honest truth. Take it or leave it.