Well its been a long spiral into hell. In the last 6 years I have lost my parents and a sister. I have lost a great job, and my health. Now I owe so much money, not a massive amount, but enough to put me into the street in days. A little to everyone. I can't even file the papaerwork for income taxes in time, I owe that will lead to a whole new world of hurt and despair. I feel terribly hopeless and very depressed. I can't seem to get an even break. I don't know what else to do or where to turn.There's not much light in my life and I'm beginning to feel like I just want it all to end. I am tired of this financial torture. I am spent trying to make it just to survive. No one seems to think I'm worthy of help to stay alive. I have nothing left. No where to go. Nothing to eat. No where to live very soon. The last thing before my life that I'm willing to give up is my only friend, my dog. If need be we will die together.

I feel like I'm hanging by a thread.

So if anyone can help with a roof over our heads and some assistance to get out of hell, and back to the land of the living, I would be forever grateful.

April 30,2008

Never mind, it's not like there is really anyone who cares out there. I'm done trying to get by and just survive. Its appalling that this can happen in this country. I'm have worked all my life and now that I can't I deserve to die, well I fucking guess so! We are homeless now and I am not going to live in my compact car for long, and as soon as I get my painkiller prescription refilled, me and my dog bid you farewell. We will be together in pergatory forever I fucking guess eh fucking GOD!!!Fuck you GOD! We are outta here for good. This site is usless, thanks Canada, thanks for nothing.

Im not even sure what this site is for other than just having people out there who know what im going through. I have spent the last few years wondering if im going to be able to hang on. Im an adult survivor of child abuse and sexual abuse. For most of my life I have been able to maintain, but recently I feel like im comming apart. Im sure most of it is related to the fact that my life latley is so out of control. The economy is so bad right now that the stress level's have reached an all time high. I know im not the only one out here suffering, I just feel like I am.  I was diagnosed with Post Tramatic Stress Syndrome, re-occuring depression, Severe Panic and Anxiety. So with all this going on the lack of money isn't helping. I know what I need to do, and I want to be able to do it, I just cant. And I know what your thinking not with that attitude, but I used to have a great attitude, I just lost it somewhere down the road. My husband is Disabled with a bad Back and Knee, It makes it hard because we are trying to maintain a house and raise 3 kids on his disability pay and it just doesnt work.. I've tried everything. I have tried to work and tried to go to school but I just cant finish anything. I start out great and then fizzle. It gets so bad I get so over whelmed I cant continue I start getting panic attacks and then im done. If anyone can offer suggestions Im open. Anything.

until then Im still hanging in there.

I would like to know how I might be referred to a doctor for my lower back, since I am a self pay patient.

I am in desperate need of oxygen and a cpap machine with humidifier. I have no medical insurance to cover these items. My oxygen level is 68 and I gasp for air on a continuos basis. It is really scarry not to be able to breathe. I cannot sleep due to gasping for air. I have looked everywhere for help and cannot find any.  I have contacted ministries and everyone sends me somewhere else as long as they don't have to help.  My doctor says that my heart is enlarging and it will continue to damage all of the organs in my body I need lightweight equipment due to other physical problems and need to be able to run in my car as I may be living there. My cardiologist says that I could have a stroke or a heart attack. I was already in ICU with a heart rate of over 200. They flatlined me four different times but my heartrate would not come down. I have medical bills close to $100,000.      I need to be able to transport the equipment myself. I found a a portable oxygen machine called excel on the internet from oxilife. The machine is $740 and is capable of running on a car battery that can be used in a car with an adapter which would add money to the price.. Not sure if there is shipping and taxes.  I also need a small  cpap machine that is portable and will fit in a very small area. I have not found a cpap machine but most of them are close to a thousand dollars. Please would someone help me, or a number of people with small donations. I am not old enough for medicare I am only 60 and I don't have any young children so can't get medicaid. My quality of life continues to deteriorate without this eqipment. can't breathe.

We made some mistakes in trusting who we thought were friends. To make a long story short we had to refinance to survive and then we were hung out to dry by our so called friends. We have been in foreclouser and now we have a date in court as the eviction notice states. My wife also has MS and we are just barely getting by. We have tried to find legal help but when they find out out status we are told to call back later when we are better off. I am not sure just how we are going to continue. We have been trying to move but with low funds can not afford to move or locate another place to live.

im a single mother, looking to relocate to ny, am in need of possible help involving housing grants whatever, im escaping a domestic violence situation,

if anyone knows any type of help, please let me know asap, as I am trying to relocate as soon as possible,

thank you much

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