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ruthie
Here since: Nov 24, 2006
Female, 23
unemployed
binghamton, New York, USA
Languages: english
arthurlsmith
Here since: Jul 15, 2007
Male, 51
Disabled Veteran
West Palm Beach, Florida, USA
Languages: English

I am so hungry! Please donate a little money so I can eat.

I don't answer scammer emails so don't even waste your time. Please donate through www.paypal.com only. My PayPal ID is arthurlsmith@bellsouth.net.

Thanks,

Arthur

 

 

Tee-Lee
Here since: Nov 15, 2007
Female, 35
Part-time Paraprofessional
Languages: English

Read my story. I am writing this to seek advice and funds to help find a lawyer and a medical expert.

   visit caringbridge.org and ENTER: larryjr             

 The Suffering of
Larry W. Avent Jr
Medical Neglect/Late Diagnosis

Larry Avent Jr was born September 19, 2003. About 5 months before he was born the OBGYN doctor told us that something didn’t look right on the Ultrasound. He said that the fetus (baby’s’) bladder looked larger than it should be. He referred us to UNC Chapel Hill Hospital. I, Mother started to see the OBGYN Doctor there and had ultrasounds done about every two weeks. The UNC doctors told us that our baby would be born with Posterior Urethral Valves and his kidneys would be damaged. They also said that he would need to do dialysis and have a kidney transplant.
Larry Jr. stayed in the hospitals’ NICU for about a month ½, after he was born. He was fed by a tube; he had a lot of IV’s, and on the Oscillator machine. He had to have surgery (Ureterostomy) at 4 days old, due to the blocked urethras because he couldn’t release his urine. While he was in the NICU on the Oscillator machine, his head was laid on one side for a while and he had a sore on the right side of his head. We noticed it and told the Nurse and she informed the doctor. They ordered a cream to put on it. The sore went away but it left a bald spot on his head.
When Larry Jr was discharged from the hospital, he wasn’t on dialysis but the PD tube was placed, in case of an emergency to start dialysis. After two weeks of being at home, Larry had to go back because he was ill with an infection. His blood labs were off (potassium was high; kidney function was not too good). They started Peritoneal Dialysis on him around November 22, 2003. I, Mother had to learn to administer the dialysis, in order to take him home.
He went home around December 11, 2003. He did ok on the dialysis except for a couple of infections that were treated and he was released. Larry Jr was put on the Transplant list around August 2005.
The UNC Hospital called us with a cadaver kidney donor on March 27, 2006, to come and be evaluated for the kidney match. He was a match and received the kidney March 28, 2006. He did well with the transplant. He didn’t walk right after surgery. It took him a while to get his strength back in his legs but he still had a hop for a while. They had trouble getting him to take the medications. After awhile he started to take them better.
Larry Jr went home and did well except for taking his medication properly. He had labs drawn about three times a week and saw the UNC doctors regularly. He never missed an appointment. He started to become sickly around the first week of August. He complained of stomach pain, mouth pain and would vomit every so often. We took him to the emergency room, Halifax Regional for these symptoms but nothing they claimed showed. The local hospital called UNC every time we took him to the local hospital. They went by UNC Hospital orders. After a while, they noticed that his blood count/hemoglobin was LOW. They started treating him for anemia; giving him iron transfusions and also started the Pediatrician giving him an injection of Arenesp every two weeks. At his appointments, we kept telling them that something was wrong with him. We asked them were they missing something. They told us that the symptoms were normal.  At his last appointment before diagnosis, I called the Hospital begging them to check Larry Jr from head to toe. I, Mother told them that something was wrong with my baby.  He only received one due to the fact that his last appointment with his Pediatrician, he had a fever of 104. The pediatrician called the UNC doctors and informed them about the fever and the low blood count. They    had received the results back by then and told me they wanted him there at the Hospital right away. When we got there they told us that they got worried when I called and told them at his appointment that he needed to be checked from head to toe, so they gave him a special blood test. They said that he had EBV, which could turn into and act as a Lymphoma, because of taking the Anti-rejection drugs. We didn’t know it was serious but they told us that it was worrisome to them.
He had to do several test such as (bone marrow test, liver biopsy, MRI and so on). It took about two weeks to make a decision about what to give Larry Jr. He had to start Chemotherapy. They told us that he had Post transplant Lymphoproliperative Disorder caused by taking Prograf/anti-rejection drugs. He had lesions on his liver, spleen, lungs and lymph system. In this case he was Stage 3-4 and they were just diagnosing this because they were looking in the wrong direction. The Pediatric Nephrologist /kidney doctors told us that the Pediatric Onocologist would be taking care of him most of the time. He had to take Chemotherapy and they also had to reduce his medication (prograf). They told us about the Protocol, that they go by and asked us if we wanted to participate in the research. We told them if our son would have to go through any more pain, we didn’t want to, but if it was the same as going through the regular treatment, it was OK. They also told us that they didn’t think it was life threatening. They said that children usually do well with that Protocol. We accepted and signed the research paper. Dr. Blatt seemed like she cared more for the research than our sons’ treatment. We didn’t see her often. We saw Dr. Gold, Dr. Western, and the residents more. Well Larry Jr sat on the childrens' 5th floor at UNC for two weeks running fevers and vomiting. He got to the point he could hardly breathe before they moved him to the PICU.
*Larry Jrs' spleen had enlarged and was pressing on his lungs and Dr. Gold told us not to worry. They acted as if they had every thing under control. We had no idea our babyboy was dieing. He ended up losing his transplanted kidney, on Hemo dialysis (which he had never had before), Chemotherapy and much more. My son suffered before he died and we didn't have a warning.

 

 

 

 

 

 

motherella
Here since: Dec 2, 2006
Female, 46
artist, writter
lebanon, Oregon, USA
Languages: english
inglesma
Here since: Aug 22, 2007
38
USA
Dobguy1
Here since: May 8, 2007
Male, 44
Electrician no more though
Durham , North Carolina, USA
Languages: English
I used to be a strong fun loving guy, worked hard and played hard, I guess I played too hard and got menengitis, I manage to fuction somewhat but my eyesight was messed up from the menengitis and my medical bills ran above 100,000. I have a 4 year old boy who doesnt know how much his dad suffers but I try hard to not let him know.  Considering everything I have managed to provide for him, Im in horrible debt but I figure Im still alive which they didnt think would happen.  I thank god for that, Im not really expecting much from this, any contributions would help us but just saying hi would help too.  You can donate and recieve a bumper sticker which is shown in my photo section, hopefully you can donate 5.00 to cover the cost for the sticker.  Thanx Dave 
PoorMe333
Here since: Apr 30, 2007
Female, 21
Unemployed
New Jersey, USA

I believe that those who help others in thier time of need will reap good karma tenfold!

Tinycountrybees
Here since: Apr 20, 2008
Female, 34
Disabled
Daytona Beach, Florida
I am so tired. I have had such a horrible life, I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I am 34 but I feel like I'm 94. I have been on Social Security Disability. I suffer from Major Depression, General Anxiety Disorder, Diabetes, Hypothyroidism, Anemia, Sleep Apnea, High Cholesterol, Diabetes Retinopathy, Infertility and Advance Periodontal disease. I had a stroke a year ago, the side effects are some stiffness in my thigh and short term memory loss. I've been told I will be completely blind in the next couple of years from the retinopathy. I know that things could be worse. I was told I will not receive additional benefits when it does happen. Social security isn't enough to even cover rent. I have recently gotten divorced and now I am being evicted by my ex husband. My parents are both deceased and I don't have any siblings. I did not know my Mother or her family, Both of my parents died when I was young. The only family members I do have are struggling themselves. I slept in my car three years ago, when I had no place to stay. I've applied for section 8 housing but I've been told since I don't have any children, the wait is three years. I can't afford to live anymore. I don't make enough money to qualify for low income housing. I am so sad and I keep getting the run around from agencies. I really need help. I hope there are some resources available to help me. Please email me if you know of anyone able to help.

Thank you!

Barbara

ambermun21
Here since: Apr 30, 2008
Female, 25
Homemaker
Brenham, Texas
Languages: English

We are a low income family looking for assistane to help us make it! Ok let me get a little bit more into detail on how we need help. My husband is a Iraqi veteran he is 27 yrs old and is now disabled he was injured in iraq, and when he came home was discharged from the military. I am unable to work out of the home due to this and our 3 children. We live in government housing and would really like to have our own home. please any info possible would be great!

lifeline800273TALK
Here since: Apr 24, 2008
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a 24-hour, toll-free suicide prevention service available to anyone in emotional crisis. If you need help, please call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) and you will be routed to one of our 130 crisis centers nationwide.
please help 4
Here since: Nov 14, 2007
Female, 38
social security
Languages: english

we were hit by hurricane katrina and havent recovered yet. i live in a terribly damaged mobile home which is allways cold, eventhough we have electric heaters. we are just an unhappy family whose having a very hard time. my girls need clothes, shoes and toys. the 16 yr. old  wears size 9 in shoes and the 7 yr. old wears 2 1/2 in shoes. Niether of my girls get outside help from other family members. All the burdern of raising them and clothing them is on me. one  wear 8 in pants and small shirts. one wear 8 in teen pants and medium in shirts. one  like electronical toys and one like educational toys. May god bless you all.

sincerely, christtriplett@bellsouth.net

 

sjmomof4
Here since: Apr 29, 2007
Female, 34
currently out of work
Port Norris, New Jersey, USA
Languages: English

I am an honest hardworking married mother of 4 children. My husband and I are going through a very hard time in our lives. We lost my father last year and my mother 11 yrs before that. Depression has set in for both of us and it is getting worse.We are asking for the help and aid of others in anyway possible. Please help me tos save my family.  

seriously ill
Here since: May 26, 2007
Female, 27
Tucson, Arizona, USA
Languages: English
I am a 27 year old mother of three and am expecting once more.  I have very little medical documentational proof, and most of the medical records I have no idea on how to obtain them, as I had moved around a lot from house to house, town to town, state to state, doctor to doctor my whole life.  I will go through my medical history the best as I can remember it and may be out of order.

Age 9, I started having what my family called "seizures", who would say my eyes would roll in the back of my head, I would fall, often injuring my head, sometimes my body would jerk and other times it would not.  I always remember very vividly the feeling I would have right before it would happen, I heard a buzzing sound that started off faint then would grow very loud very fast, and I would regain conciousness hearing the buzzing sound dissipate from my sounds, always leaving me very weak and tired and I often needed to sleep afterward.  I would have anywhere from 1-5 per year and I still get them from time to time but they have reduced since I've been in my 20's.  These seizures started after I fell from a tireswing and hitting my head on a rock and urinating in my pants at a place I can no longer recall, as I was 9 years old.  Ever since this event, I have had these "seizures".  Several years after I started having these seizures my mother grew concerned and decided to send me to Allegheny General Hospital in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania for testing for epilepsy.  I got tested for months and all tests came up negative and said that there was no known medical cause for my seizures.  I then moved away, and nothing else was done about this until I was 15 years old when I had a seizure in English class (the first time I had one in public) and was rushed to the hospital by my grandparents who came to pick me up.  My pediatrician was Dr. George Fatula, who has a practice in DuBois, Punxsutawney, and Brookville , PA offices.  That particular day I was in the DuBois office as it was closer to my school which was located in Reynoldsville, PA.  A nurse made a comment that my blood pressure was so weak that she was unable to take my blood pressure.  I ended up getting referred to a pediatrician cardiologist from a group located out of Danville, PA who came to DuBois hospital to evaluate and treat me.  He told me that my seizures and fainting spells was probably due to quick movements and my blood pressure dropping.  I was prescribed salt pills or a high sodium diet.  I first tried the salt pills, but forgot to take them a lot so I opted for the striving for a high sodium diet.  It seemed to help to some extent, but it did not curb the seizures either.  

Age 12, I told my mom that my back was hurting me every day for many months and I thought I needed a doctor.  So my mom took me to a chiropractor who said I had scoliosis.  His name was Dr. Goodman from Pittsburgh, PA and he advised that I see an orthopedic surgeon.  I ended up moving back to where my family is from, to Brookville area where I saw Dr. Alexander Krot where I got x rays and told the degrees of my curvatures and was told there was nothing that could be done for me.  I was given a paper of exercise figures and sent on my way.  I was very scared of the demeanor of this doctor and was terrified of him and went back to him few times after that. This is where I developed my intense fear of doctors.  Just their titles alone make me nervous and that makes me seem less credible when I am describing my symptoms.  This made me not want to openly discuss my medical/emotional history openly.  

Age 13, hospitalized for having thoughts and urges to kill myself with my prescription medication I was prescribed for gastritis.  I was in foster care at this time because of severe childhood abuse and turmoil and I was sick for 2 weeks and missed a lot of school.  I recall my foster father saying that he thought I was faking it and that he didnt think I realy was sick, and was particularly interested in finding out why I was so sick.  I had also had a traumatic experience with an older guy who was 17, who had tricked me into thinking that he didnt have a girlfriend and seduced me and dumped me and ultimately humiliated me.  He told everyone who would listen that he was unable to penetrate me and he needed a crowbar to get inside me.  I was socially outcasted from then on, which led me into the hospital.  I don't think that I mentioned anything about being sick, even though it was the most agonizing pain I have ever endured for the first time.  I made no mention of it, but it really did impact me.  So I was in a children's psychiatric unit at DuBois Regional Medical Center east and I was a resident for more than 30 days, due to the fact that I was a foster child and my foster family had divorced and I was not allowed to return.  It was at DuBois Regional Medical Center where I was assigned to a dr named Dr. Bob DiGellarmo (i am not sure how his last name is spelled) and he was the most unethical doctor I have ever met.  I told him what happened about the situation that preceded my admittance there, and he told me that I was raped.  I told him no I was not raped that I wanted it to happen in the moment and I was willing and consenting.  Then he sat there and continued to say that he raped me and I had made the mistake of telling him that another girl in the unit with me was the sister of the 17 year old guy who used and humilated me.  I never said anything to anyone, and the following day, the sister threatened me on more than one occasion after she learned from sources unknown to me that I was the girl that was "falsely accusing him of rape" when I said no such thing.  I really believe that Dr Bob had told her his fabrication of events in addition to her brother telling her the same thing.  Not long after this, I had secretly attempted to strangle myself in the bathroom one night with my bra (i was strangely not on suicide watch after this event) and I remember my face turning red and my conciousness was starting to go fuzzy and I had a flash image of my grandmother crying over my death so I stopped;  my gram was everything to me and still is.  For a long time she was the only person I really felt and believed that she really truly cared about me.   After release of the hospital to another foster home, i was required to see a counselor once or twice a week for a year or two.  I had bad experiences with Zoloft in the hospital, it caused jittery tremors and my stomach felt like it was on fire.  They changed my prescription to prozac where i remained on it for the next few months.  I remember vividly having an erotic fantasy of cutting myself up and masturbating in my blood and relishing in this.  It subsquently scared me and embarrassed me that I never told anyone about it and I stopped taking my medicine, pretending to still take it for a couple months after I had quit taking it.  I refused to take medications after this event.

Age 20 I was attending Penn State University and I was in the most pain I had ever been in in my whole life.  It rendered me unable to attend classes and unable to leave my couch.  I was in writhing agony even laying down which was a relief from when I had to walk around to use the bathroom and get food and take care of my children.  My live in boyfriend was convinced that there was nothing wrong with me and that I was just lazy and looking for attention.  This not only depressed me, but it downright angered me because I knew it was very real and I was not making any of it up and I was suffering.  

Age 22, my whole life fell apart.  I developed a drinking problem, and this was when my health slowly starting declining even more.  This is when I started isolating myself and spiraled into a depression from the devastating events that were happening along with the development of my sensitivity to all of my senses.  I lived with my brother, leaving my children to be cared for by my family members and I started down a shame spiral that led me to vomiting daily.  I never forced myself to vomit, my stomach actually burned and I would eventually throw up.  I would eat and throw up.  I found that if i ate bagels with cream cheese daily then I puked less.  So I ate 1-3 bagels a day for the next several months.  In time, I found that smoking marijuana also significantly reduced the duration, frequency that I would throw up.  I thought I was bulemic, but at the same time it didnt make sense to me, because I never wanted to throw up.  It would just happen.  So I called it "bulemia beyond my will and control".  Now, my sensitivies have worstened and expanded to more excruciating measures.  I can vomit from a bad smell, or a disgusting sight.  My stomach will burn if I even hear undesirable sounds and if I have bright lights (or sunlight) in my eyes.  I have been a daily marijuana user since age 22, out of necessity, loathing myself for constantly breaking the law and being depressed because I don't feel I have much choice.  

Age 24-25 ish, I saw Dr. Joseph Prusakowski from Brookville PA. and for the first time in many years I finally opened up to a doctor and pleaded with him to help me to have a quality of life.  I was sick and was bed ridden for months and I was not getting better.  I was having great difficulty walking and had a couple of bouts of physical therapy to rehabilitate my right hip.  I was afraid that I was going to get nowhere once again, but to my surprise, this was the first doctor in many years who really cared enough to try to help me.  He referred me to physical therapy and Dr. Laun Hallstrom who was a pain management doctor who tried many different ways to control my pain.  He first gave me muscle relaxers and pain medication to aid with my physical therapy.  Then I was in more pain from physical therapy so he tried a semi-surgical outbound procedure by putting needles of some numbing solution in my lower back and problematic hip.  I had 3 or 4 procedures and it was not working.  It was painful and I found it to be pointless.  Then I lost all respect for him when he prescribed Lexapro for me in attempt to treat my depression from the failure of my treatment.  I was so mad that he would do that, but I decided that since I was trying to apply for SSI, I had to at least try it and I did.  The medication made me mean and isolated myself.  I remember sleeping a lot and fluctuating rapidly to not being able to sleep.  Constantly back and forth from insomnia to excessive sleeping and back again.  I felt I was going crazy.  I felt that my doctors, with the best intentions, were not helping me and were causing me more pain and frustation because my therapy was failing.  I had also develped a strange urinary issue and was unable to pee.  My bladder got so sore and painful from being full and I was unable to empty it.  I went to emergency room after emergency room.  I went to Brookville Hospital ER where a nurse named Nixon gave me a catheter bag (it was my first time) and then left it inserted in my urethra for the next 2 hours.  After one hour I was in severe pain and I was repetedly ignored.  After an hour of telling 3 different employees that would actually look at me, no one came.  I became hysterical and was crying.  It was then that she and the doctor rushed in.  The nurse crossly asked me why I was crying and I told her I was in pain for a long time and I was ignored.  She then said that she would fix that problem and ripped the catheter out of me while the doctor stood there and watched.  As she ripped the catheter out, I screamed out in severe pain and was sent home with some aintibiotic with my urethra in severe pain.  I later went to DuBois Hospital and I received excellent care.  I ended up seeing a urologist named Dr, Javieer Reddy out of Brookville.  He said that my urethra was too narrow and that I had a small kidney stone.  He said that I needed surgery to enlarge my urethra which was also quite painful afterward.  I went back for my checkup after the surgery, and my urethra narrowed on its own again.  Wasted time and unnecessary surgery.  I was given medication that is usually given to old men with prostate issues and my urinary symptoms gradually dissipated over time.  But all through that time I was in the worst pain I had ever experienced to date and I really believed that I was going to die.  This was the period of time that I was sick, in pain, and bedridden for the longest time ever.  11 months.  I ended up being denied SSI because they ruled that I was able to have a telecommunications customer service job, as I have had previous experience doing and it devastated me.  I did not disclose my depression or emotional issues because I was afraid and unwilling to take any more medication.  So I was denied SSI so I was forced to move with my mom when she wanted to move to Tucson, AZ.  I knew that if I didnt I would have just stayed in that room and maybe died for all I know.  In the rural PA that I am from, there are no jobs like that, and the few that are close by that are phone jobs involved selling stuff and I have never been able to successfully sell anything.  I moved here, and I have had 2 jobs since I have been here and neither one for very long.  I am unable to work in my current condition and I just want relief so I can work.  This has not yet happened.

I am 27, sick, weak, in pain and so very depressed.  I am always constipated and I am in terrible pain trying to have a bowel movement from gas and often times my anus will bleed because the waste is so hard.  I am unable to work and I am unable to clean my house....I am barely able to function enough to perform my motherly duties.  The days go on it gets harder and harder to provide care for my children.  I walk around feeling half dead and my only relief is getting high all day every day that I can.  I hate having to rely on this as my medicine, I spend so much of my money on it just so I can eat.  At first it was worth it, but now its running my partner's income practically dry and we are having trouble making ends meet, all in the name of comfort for me.  I hate living this way, I hate feeling like a loser, and I hate doing drugs to get through the day.  I am afraid for my family because I know my lifestyle could catch up to me and I could get caught at any time.  I desperately need help.

I have an extreme personality and I have often been misunderstood and disliked because of it.  I sometimes tried both ends of the extremes and none if it works.  And yet, I can't ever find the happy medium of normalcy and it often leaves people wondering about my choices.  I do believe that a lot of the devastating events that have happened to me are a direct result of poor choices I have made, and yet I do not know how to not have extreme, radical thinking and I do not know how to make sound decisions under emotional distress.

I have an 8 year old son who was diagnosed with something called PDD, pervasive developental disorder, a form of autism.  I was never aware of anyone in my family of having autism and the childs father was just as confused as i was because no one in his family had it.  The father blamed his having autism on my genetics but had no real proof.  Last summer, I made a number of google searches about autism and on my symptoms and found something called Wilson's Disease.  I remember crying when I read the page.  I cried because I was convinced that this is what has been plaguing me my whole life.  I thought that all of the issues I had were seperate and unrelated.  I became angry from all of the medical mistreatment I have receieved over the years and I am terrified of doctors now.  

I have noticed in the past year, I have dark spots interfereing with my vision slightly.  And I have a yellow-ish ring in my eye that is visible up close.  

I need a doctor that will put aside their nature to come up with their own theory of what is wrong with me.  I am tired of hearing that nobody can help me.  I believe that someone can help me.  I need someone to humor me and test me for Wilson's Disease as a starting point in attempting to figure out what is wrong with me.  If that comes up negative I need the doctor to be patient with me and keep testing and researching to find out what is wrong with me.  I need help.  I can't live like this anymore.  I want my children to have a mother who is relatively more able to take care of herself and her home and her children.  All I want is to feel better.  I am currently pregnant now, and I do not plan to have any more children after this.  Please help me have quality of life because I have none.  I am desperate, my situation is desperate, I need money and I need to be well to work or get disability....something....anything to provide for my family.  I am tired of being hungry and being sick and losing weight.  I am tired of the pain.  I am just tired.

transformationwormgirl@hotmail.com

doctors please email me.  I have no money or even insurance at this time.  I need a doctor who is willing to evaluate, investigate, and test on a charity basis.  I need a doctor who is willing to fly to where I currently live in Tucson AZ to do this. Ultimately, I need a doctor like Dr. House, from the medical show on Fox.  There has to really be doctors that are obsessive about solving the puzzle of the patient like he is.  Let me have hope once again that I could know what is wrong with me and have real and humane treatment.  

thank you for your time.
MeMe
Here since: Aug 2, 2005
Female, 58
Mail room clerk in a law firm
North Versailles, Pennsylvania, USA
Languages: English

I work full time at a law firm and my husband is home alone. He can barely get around. The disease he has is distroying all the muscles in hes arme and legs. He also has no use of his hands or fingers. I now have to work full time, take care of my husband, do all the cleaning, laundry, cooking, home repars, car repairs, painting, yard work and ect. My husband can do nothing any more. I get totally exhausted, physically and mentally. I am trying my best to keep him home, I do not want to put him in a personal care home. If my bathroom was updated this would be the best help I could ask for. I am looking for some type of Federal or State grants or low interest funding and have no idea where to search.

Please notice me

How are  all u wonderful people. God Bless you all. I am in a financial bind. My 16 yr old daughter is going threw cervical cancer and is having surgery monday. All the money I did have is going toward her surgery. It's just about summer time and I don't even have the money to buy airconditioners for my kids. My trailor was hit in hurricane Katrina and our floors are falling in. I never have enough money to pay bills and no money to buy summer clothes for my kids. will someone please contact me with help.

p.o. box 254

dekalb, ms. 39328

Sabrina Clark

texasjimi
Here since: Mar 8, 2008
Male, 58

 

                                    

                                         

For those of us who are just poor

Just after 9/11 I realized life wasn’t going to be so good, my husbands job was in jeopardy and we had accumulated around $20,000 in debt. My husband’s employer made window gaskets for high-rise buildings; it was their specialty and the main product that they produced. They began working two or three days a week, it was barely enough to put food on our table and a roof over our head let alone pay utilities and credit card bills. We weren’t sure what to do, should he find a new job or should he stick by the company who has been so supportive of us. We decided to wait it out, see what happens. In the meantime I fought off the greedy creditors, telling them I will pay my debt I have always held my accounts in good standing only to end the conversations with me crying and begging them for understanding.

 I cried myself to sleep at night’s wondering why us, just when I thought our lives were going good how could we end up poorer then poor again. I thought how am I going to pay our bills, how will I keep our utilities on. I didn’t know where to turn for help, I didn’t know help existed. All I wanted was money to get by.  I began to be jealous of anybody whoever had something that I didn’t. I hated people, I hated life.

 Eventually my husband’s job picked up he had more overtime then he could handle. It was barely enough to pay up on our utilities; we still couldn’t catch up on our credit cards. It seemed after all of this bad luck hit us one month after another. A hospital bill from when my husband was 19 caught up to us, $5000, past taxes he never paid $200, a debt to a bank $500 and a truck that he didn’t own anymore $700. Then I had gotten sick and hospitalized $2000 and my husband was stung in the throat by a bee and hospitalized $2000. Going through all of this I still had to fend off the credit card companies.

 Life wasn’t worth it anymore; I had life insurance I was worth more dead then alive. I tried committing suicide before but this time I wouldn’t try, I wanted my family to live a good life with or without me. I had even talked to my husband about being cremated and how I wanted my death to be handled if I ever died. I could never follow through I wanted to be with my kids I didn’t want to be away from them.

 I cried every night I didn’t know what to do. We couldn’t afford bankruptcy if I had $700 to pay a lawyer then I wouldn’t need to file bankruptcy I could pay my bills. I was stuck at a dead end I couldn’t move forward and couldn’t move backward. That’s when I decided I had to change our lives; no one would change it for me.

 I sat and looked at all of our bills one day, I wrote everything down how much came in and how much went out, only to find myself more depressed then when I started. I knew we had to change we had to start paying out less then we brought in. That’s when we started “Poorly Living”. I did everything I could to save money, right down to taking light bulbs out. I then decided any extra money had to go to our debts. I started babysitting, doing paid to read emails and paid surveys. It wasn’t much, it was pennies but every extra penny went towards our debts. I was no longer going to feel sorry for myself I was going to help myself.

 I am proud to say I did help myself, it has been six years and $20,000 worth of debt has been paid down to around $5,000. I have 2 years left to pay on our trailer and our last credit card, by that time I should be free and clear of all debts. I did it by myself, no one helped me. It didn’t happen over night if I learned anything from my experiences it’s that all things are possible if you want them bad enough, and you will never learn anything if you don’t help yourself.

God Bless all of you,

Lady Christie

A.Hillbilly
Here since: Feb 26, 2008
47
Farrier
Languages: English

"Our only hope ls our children and olderfolk," Good God in heaven knows, the "powers that be" sure won't change their ways and help the backbone of america. Things went bad when we started moving Grandpa & Grandma out of the home into oldfolks homes. The kids lost precious teachings that are vital to life. The olderfolk lost their reason to be. All in the name of Bigger, better,faster and longer! We have a vast number of children lost in fostercare, on the street,and in broken homes. And with the great number of functioning olderfolk lets take some of the failing family farms and put them together? This is my idea. The children have not only lost the joys and lessons that Mom and Dad have no time to teach. But what is more, They don't learn how to be Human. Look around, We are in deep we must begin with our children so that when they are "The powers that be" they wil treat their familys with a bit more Humanness. One farm is all we need to start.   A. Hillbilly

Please Send Help

Does anyone really care about us or am I an Idiot for thinkingsomeone does,,,My kids think there is a big blabk cloud hanging over us some one please shed some light and faith on me

                     Eternally Gratefull Pam Walden at 6 driftwood way gibbsboro Nj 08026

God bless all if you@@@@@@@@@@@

Comment: Christmas time was always...
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Christmas time was always so special to me, I did alot of the traditional things and showed my children how others needed cheer too. Now my last at home is at such a crucial age and doing so well in school, he deserves to be rewarded with a nice christmas. It wasn't always this way and his siblings had it better at his age.I Divorced his Dad, but it seems his Dad divorced his son. He doesn't even help with school clothes because he pays childsupport and no more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lfphotoham
Here since: Jan 29, 2008
Male, 40
Disabled
Remlap, AL
Languages: English

A little background information. I am 40, almost 41 years old, married with two beautiful daughters ages 8 and 5 and disabled since April 2001. I receive Social Security Disability but we all know that it does not come close to a regular pay check. Before I got sick, my wife and I were both working and our combined income was close to $85K per year. I began getting sick in 1999 with acid reflux or GERD. I went through every drug on the market and using each above the recommended maximum dosage with little or no relief. When it began eating away at the lining of my esophagus to the point I was developing holes in the lower portion near the point where it connects to the stomach and spilling into my lungs so badly that they thought I had developed asthma, their only other option for me was a surgical procedure called fundoplication. This procedure takes the upper portion of the stomach and and wrap it around the esophagus to tighten the valve to prevent the acid from coming back up and to cover the holes. It was supposed to be a laproscopic procedure where I had it done on one day, spend the night in the hospital and go home the next morning. My maximum time off work was to be two weeks. I actually left the hospital on the day I was supposed to return to work. When I kind of came to on the first day after having the laproscopic procedure go so badly that I had to be opened up the full length of my abdomin so that they could try to fix what they did that almost killed me plus I was in intensive care. The next day, they did a test where I drank some awful tasting mess so they could check for any leaks in my stomach or anything. Guess what, they stated that they found leaks and back into the operating room I went where they took everything they did the day before apart and did it all again. This time when I woke up, again in intensive care, I was on a ventolator for a week. They took the thin lining that is between your organs and your skin to keep then from growing to each other to wrap my stomach and seal off the 3 or 4 places that it tore open during the laproscopic surgery. During the first, laproscopic, surgery, in addition to my stomach tearing open in 3 places, my liver was cut/damaged to the point that the gave me at least 4 units of blood. I haven't been able to work since then. I have constant diarrhea, abdominal pain which is increased when I eat anything at all, on a scale of 1 to 10, I stay around 8 or 9 all the time. I also have a partial small bowel obstruction that will eventually have to be surgically fixed. The obstruction(s) are caused from the extreme amount of scar tissue that I have in my abdomin which is why they don't want to operate again until they absolutely have to. I have been admitted to the hospital 12 times in just the past 3 years and have already had to have surgery to correct a blockage in my colon. My small intestines, colon and I don't know what else is attached to my skin where the lining was removed. I cannot lift anything more than 5 to 7 pounds, pull, strain, climb, crawl  nor stand, sit or lye down for more than about an hour and a half at a time because of the pain. I also have areas that are close to herniating which will also cause another surgical procedure. When they admit me for a blockage, I spend a week there with a tube down my nose (NG Tube), in my stomach connected to a suction pump to pull all of that stuff back out and clear the blockage, for then anyway. One, I cannot even stand to think about any other surgery and two, the doctors don't want to do it either.  In addition to all of that, and I left some things out, I have degenerative disk disease in my back, my spine has lost it's curve at the end where the tail bone is. Also, I have to sleep with a CPAP machine because of sleep apneia and have to take medicine during the day because I also have narcolepsy. Dealing with all of this has caused depression, anxiety and post traumatic stress disorder from the surgery. I still and always will deal with these health issues and mental stress from now on. Because of all of my problems, it's obvious that my wife had to leave her job to care for my and our children so we have been trying to make it on Social Security Disability which is getting harder and harder every day. We have already gone through our savings and 401(k)'s to survive and keep our home and a vehicle. Our credit is shot because we have had the 2 cars that we had when this all happened repossessed. Also, all of the other credit we had then, fell behind and pretty much totally destroyed our credit. We are behind one house payment and the mortgage company is a pain to deal with and absolutely refuse to offer any assistance at all. I am still trying to pay some on my hospital co-payments that are now pushing a total of close to $10K and I never know from day to day when I may have to go back. Plus, like everyone else, I have the normal power, phone, cable, water, trash pickup, car payment, car insurance, homeowners insurance, food and school things for our girls. We also heat and cook using propane gas. We have been without propane for 95% of the winter and we are out now which means we heat with small electric heaters and cook on a hot plate, microwave or small toaster oven. Right this moment, we have a total of maybe $5 to last two more weeks and it's about to drive us crazy. We can't cook, heat nor watch TV because the cable has been turned off until I can get money to pay them in two weeks. I am the type of person who hates to have to ask others for help. I would rather help others than to ask for help but I don't have much of a choice right now. Our families, our church and our friends have been great during all of this but they all have their own bills and families to take care of also. Any help would greatly be appreciated! May God bless you!

I Hate Writng This

Its strange living in the good ol USA and having so many problems, my wife and I have a beautiful son and we managed to buy a house in North Carolina.  Last year I had cryptococcal Menengitis My Pageand almost died, because of this I have had severe vision problems and trouble concentrating.  I still try and work as much as I can but I feel my days of working may soon be over. I try not to let my son see my pain and he is only 4 but sooner or later he will find out what is wrong with dad.  It makes me so sad that I find myself crying alot, something I never did.  If anything can take you down its menengitis and it did to me.  I was lucky a girl in the next room died of the disease.  Its hard dealing with the after effects of this disease and the nuerological problems it creates.  I have a bill from the hospital for 100,000 but need to pay 10% of it.  I know I probably wont get any help, its not that people dont care but everybody seems to be broke now.  All Im asking is if you could just donate 1.00 it would mean the world to me and my family.  Thanks for reading this far and please protect your health, it's all you have in this world.  Peace Dave

I will be homeless soon :*(

 Last December, I was a happy girl attending Empire Beauty School.  It was my dream and even though how I got to achieve that dream was through misfortune (a car accident settlement), it still made me happy to know that I didn't have to go to a four year school and pay 20K plus to major in a vague subject. Unfortunately, I had to give up my dreams of becoming a stylist due to the financial burden (the school wanted $500.00 a month!).

Then, the credit card offers came into play. Having never been taught budgeting or money management and being unemployed, I was prey for the creditors. I applied with every offer I got and was approved for 7 cards. Not having guidence, I racked up over $3,000.00 in debt! I know now that the purpose of having credit is for the rewards and simplicity of not carrying cash. I also know now what a FICO Score is and how to screw one up in no time at all. Now I believe that credit cards are only good when you have the money amount you're spending.

Next in line is hospital bills! I have no medical insurance and no way to get some. My charity care just ran out and I owe the local hospital $1,000.00!

I am in collections all over the place. I'm trying extremely hard to get a job, but I haven't had any luck thus far.I already went to 6 interviews and I can't even afford to look the part. I have no license or car, no friends, no local family, and I'm giving up on life.  I feel like I'm slowly sinking into homelessness. My depression grows each day and I often wish I were dead. It sounds dumb, but money really does make the world go round! I can't pay my rent and utilities and I'm not eligible for a loan. I'm too poor to get help but not poor enough yet to be in a national geographic style ad. I'm trying to sell my possessions to live. My mother is permanently disabled and thus jobless and my father hasn't seen me in over 6 yrs, lives 500 miles away, and doesn't care to. All of my grandparents are dead, I don't have any kids, and I'm not married...so, I really see a way that I can survive. I really wanna die, but I'm hopin' some kind soul can help me first. I can break down all the bills I owe further if need be. Please help me to be the girl in that picture; the girl I am inside. I used to care about my appearance. Now I care only about where my next $2.00 for some oddles n' noodles is coming from. If you believe in God or a god, then know that if you help me he will see and in turn you will be helped in your time of need. Please pay it forward! I could write a book on every insane detail, but time is of the esscense for most so if you want to know anything else please feel free to ask me.

Thank you for your time,

                       April

Memaw
Here since: Nov 24, 2006
Female, 54
TSS
Pennsylvania, USA

I am a single grandma raising a grandchild. I have three grown children, thirteen grandchildren. I have managed to survive a divorce, put myself through college and obtained a job. Although I don't make alot, I help many people in what I do.

I am great at being available to help others, but am poor at helping myself. I am in need of help because although I am employed, I don't make enough to make ends meet. Currently, I am in need of a home and would greatly appreciate any help providing a Christmas to my granddaughter. She is the light of my life.

I have many grandchildren to share my love with, but this one is like my own. She actually is not a biological grandchild, but kind of an inherited one. I've managed to give her a good set of values, and she works to get good grades, is cooperative at home, and is always available to help my other grandchildren. This in itself speaks of the goodness within her.

I truly need help, feel desparate and don't know where to turn. I am not eligible for help because she is not my child although I have legal court ordered custody. I am such a disappointment to her, as I cannot provide for her. My wages go to feed her, pay for my vehicle and insurance and that is all. I need the car for work, as well as for us to sleep in. I am ashamed of how poorly I have done in life.

I am very capable of more, but just can't seem to get the breaks that many others do. I don't ask for the system to support me, but rather to find a better way to support myself and move forward in life. My goal is to write a book on my life as a foster child (BAD).

I am a great resource for helping others find help if they are in the low income bracket or have disabilities.

DEPRESSED SINGLE MOM, WITH SO MANY DIFFICULTIES PLEASE HELP ME.

I AM 24 YRS OLD AND HAVE SO MANY HARDSHIPS, AND MISFORTUNES AND SUFFER DEEPLY FROM POST PARTUM DEPRESSION.  I DREAD EACH DAY THAT I AWAKE.  I NEVER GET A BREAK FROM MY SON...TO HAVE TIME TO MYSELF, HANDLE BUSINESS, GET AHEAD, TO THINK CLEARLY, TO RELAX, TO ENJOY MYSELF.  I WAS LIVING WITH MY GRANDPARENTS AND NY GRANDFATHER GET VERY INAPPROPRIATE WITH ME, MAKING ME SCARED AND RUNNING FROM HIM.  LOST MY CLOSEST THING TO A FATHER LAST YEAR, ALONG WITH MY WIDOWED MOTHER AND SIBLINGS.  SONS FATHER IS IN PRISON, MY CAR IS A FIRE HAZARD, AND HAS SO MANY BROKEN FEATURES AND MISSING PIECES AND NON WORKING COMPONENTS.  ALL MY BILLS ARE IN COLLECTIONS, UNPAID, WHEN I HAD A CREDIT SCORE OF 663 JUST LAST YEAR.  I SLEEP WHEREVER I CAN...IN MY CAR THATS MISSING A WINDOW, AT FRIENDS, OR WHEREVER.  I NEED MONEY, HELP PAYING TICKETS TO GET MY LISENCE BACK, HELP WITH HOUSING, COUNSELING, SUPPORT, GUIDANCE, AND THE ABILITY TO BE THE MOTHER I SHOULD BE TO MY SMART LITTLE BOY.  I NEED STABILITY FOR BOTH OF US, I NEED MY OWN LIFE.  I HAVE NO SELF CONFIDENCE AND AVOID LEAVING TO GO OUT TO STORES, OR TO HANDLE BUSINESS, OR ANYTHING, BECAUSE OF MY CAR, SON, LACK OF MONEY OR HARD TIMES LEAVING TO GO ANYWHERE BECAUSE OF LACK OF PROPERTY OR SPACE OR MOTIVATION OR HOPE.  I AM FEELING TO HOPELESS AND STUCK AND DEEP I KNOW I HAVE POTENTIAL, BUT I NEED HELP TO BE GIVEN THE CHANCE TO GET EVERYTHING GOING IN MY LIFE.  I AM WELL EDUCATED, NOT ANY DEGREES THOUGH. PLEASE I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO HONESTLY CARE AND HAVE THE ABILITY TO AT LEAST FINANCIALLY ASSIST US.  THANK YOU FOR READING. 

chell69
Here since: Feb 22, 2008
Female, 38
past cna
fleming, ga
Languages: english
 YOU CAN CHANGE MY LIFE
 
All is wrong and all is gone!!

Not real sure why I am writing this.  I guess I am hoping for a miracle.  I will try to be brief--but it probably won't happen.  I am in DEEP financial trouble.  I NEVER thought that this could happen to ME.  Let me give an overview. Widowed-4 children.  Sept 1997 husband goes out of work on disability. Diagnosis-COPD, emphasema.  Money is fine--Soc Sec diasability plus private disability from his job.  I take on full time job to obtain benefits, mostly for him and our 4 children.  Dec 2001, he goes on transplant list for a lung.  June 2002, lung transplant (happens to be the same day as our 3 child's high school graduation) Home from hospital in 6 weeks.  Not doing well.  32 meds a day. 

Take on second FT job to help cover additional medical costs and college tuition for 2 of the 4 kids.  Several trips to hospital for medicine adjustments.  I am working approx 14 hrs a day, except Sun. Easter-2004.  Goes to hospital.  Supposed to come home-goes into multi system failure.  Dies April 29 2004.  $25,000 in life ins.  and the 255 from SSec.

Children are devestated-I am lost.  WE had been married for almost 30 years.  Disability stops.  Social security disability stops.  They are sending one check for my last child-an upcoming senior. 

My 2 sisters in law come when he passed.  It got ugly-they said I didn't go to the hospital enough.  I spoke w them the day before the memorial service, they told me that I had made their brother not want to live because of my attitude.  My oldest son told them to NOT come the the service, and they were no longer part of the family.  (Now husband is gone, and my 2 sisters is law, along w their daughters are gone)(BTW0I am an only child and my mom passed away on Thanksgiving day, 1976--I was 8 months pregnant and my husband was based in Los Angeles) The day of the memorial service, my only relative, other than my kids and my dad, was my mom's sister.  She was 80.  SHe asked if I would take hew to the doctors, Walter Reed Med Center.  To cut thru the llines, she was diagnosed w pancreatic cancer.  3 days a week I drove 60 miles to pick her up, take her into the med hospital for chemo, take her back home and then go to work.  She had always said that she would take care of me if she were to pass.  They had given her 3 months-she lived 9.  Her oldest sister-a single, never married 94 year old spinster, blamed me for my aunts death--I would not get 24 hour nursing care because I wanted all the money.  SO NOT TRUE!!!! My aunt did not want 24 hour care.  SHe finally passed Mar of 2005--my 93 yo aunt got everything.  Close to about 2 million in cash.  I GOT NOTHING!!!!  oh yes, my wonderful cousins who never helped with her care all came down from Pa and got all the furniture, collectable, etc.  She gave to ea of my cousins, 50,000.00.  That hurt--it was not her money--I helped my aunt because that is what you are supposed to do.  But, because I was working 2 jobs, I lost a lot of money spending the day, 3 times a week, running up and down the highway,  no big deal--!!

Money was going quickly--=my 2 daughters had been sharing an apt.  The oldest met a man that she fell for.  That left me paying bills for my home and the apt where the girls had lived.  (Yes-all of the kids had jobs-they all started working when they were 14) As my youngest was a freshman in college and still working thru her fathers death.  I toyed with selling the house and moving into their apt, but logistically it would be not good. But I was sinking fast.  I found a man who would buy the house, let me stay in it, and he would split the equity that could possible accumulate over the next two years.  I was in such bad shape, I didnt realize until after all was said and done, that I sold my house to this man for 40 thousand less than the market.  I was desparate.  Got things caught back up--then the string of bad happened!!  As if I needed more bad!  I spent 2000 trying to fix my car.  I finally had to get rid of it, as I was getting too many tickets.  There went another 1400.00 as the down payment.  A friend, who had come to stay with me for a short period of time, managed to take moeny from me, and convinced me to sign a car title over to him so that he could get a loan.  He promisted to repay in the next 6 months,  Guess whaT?  He split WITH The car and my money.  I thought that you cuold trust a friend.  WRONG!! My son was getting married the End of Sep 06/  And yes, that, too, cost money.  SO the youngest moved in with me.  In the mean time, the other daughter was living w/ her now fiance.  That daughter ALWAYS made me proud.  SHe was woeking 2 jobs-one a sec pos for a sub contractor of Homeland Security and coaching gymnastics in the evening AND still taking classes at Mason University. Always paid her bills on time.  Cared about the rest of the family. But this male--this guy she hooked up with.  He had no credit--it ws ruined by his X wife.  So my daughter cosigned a loan for hime to get a car.  This guy heard of some deal on the net to get a "consolidation loan".  This company had you pay an "insurance" fee in case you didn't make the payments.  Funny--the ins fee had to be Western unioned to CANADA.  He did not do it once, but when the money didn't come in, they told him to send more---AND HE DID!!  Oh yeah, the money was my daughters.  She calls me hesterical one day--tells me what this idiot had done, she had already mailed out all of her bills--they were all gonna bounce!!  (yes-he was scammed! But I would think that any 31 yead old, supposedly college grad with a Bus deg, would have figured that out)I told the two of them to move in with me and my other daugher,m for a short period of time to pay me back and get them on their feet.  They agreed=things would be paid back, they would get me 400 a month toward utilities and and something weekely to pay back the other money.  WEll--did nto happen.  The car that this guy had my duaghter buy, was repossesed.  Then 3 weeks ago, he was arrested for embezzlement.  (At least he called his father to get money for an attorney)  He was sopposed to be in court yesterday0but the wokan who pressed charges did not show up. SO there is a continuation until Mar.  I really thought that I could get my house back==just me and the 2 girls.  Wrong!!So knowing that she was going to run the risk of bad checks, nsf fees, and possible crimianl charges, I took my rent money and gave it tp her.  Thought that maybe my aunt would send me a little bit if I asked.

SOld home 14 months later to pay off bills that were accumulating.  Purchased a smaller home-with a large down payment.  Thougth things would be ok.  WRONG!  College tuition had gone up, again.  The money was still out that my one daughter still owed.  The car payments.  The college payments.  Still paying off medical bills from my husband.  Utilities have gotten higher.  When there was money in the bank, all were paid on time.  But too many things in too short a period of time==things have gone crazy.  I have not made a credit card payment in months.  (Oh let me tell you-Christmas was HORRIBLE!!) The car payments, insurance, med bills, are killing me.  The guy who bought my house, his wife told me yesterday, that if I didnpt get all the rent to her, plus late fees, by Fri, I would get an eviction notice. Oh, my dentist of 23 years, sued me in court over $320.  They are garnishing wages.  Oh yea--IRS!!  I did my taxes early to get the refunds.  WRONG!  I owe 1700 fed and about 600 to state.  Just one more thing!!

I really believe that everyone would be better if I were not around.  It seems that everything I try to do only gets me in deeper and deeper!!  I do not know what to do!! 
I know you all woul d never care about any of this--so I have wasted a lot of time.  But the mental pain of not knowing one min t the nect about anything is horrible.  I really wish that I could have been the one to leave this earth. 

So as I started out---EVERYTHINGGS WRONG!

Single mother of 2 little girls

I am in need of paying my bad debts like $10,000 and try to provide more to my 2 girls and get us more clothings. I live in low income apartment and have only social security a monthly very small since have hearing loss so my english isnt good since knows sign language. I have been trying to get supports and more and no lucks so this is why I am doing this and hopefully it will overcome a good news for me and my girls. If want more informations I would do my best to provide it BUT please NO scammers because was scammed last year so please have a heart dont do that to me. God bless

shyskyz
Here since: Aug 4, 2005
Female, 47
N/A
N/A
Terre Haute, Indiana, USA
Languages: English

   

        I am 45 yrs old, I married young, and I now have three grown sons, and 7 grandchildren, with one in gods' arms. I am on my own now. Really ready to throw in the towel. I am almost 3 months behind on everything. I am seeing a Doctor at Katherine Hamiltons' they are good to me and are doing all they can for me. I do have one thing in my favor as long as my van stays running , and as long as I can drive I will drive. Hopefully I will get well soon and then I can support myself again, God willing.

For I am not finished living yet!!!

anora08
Here since: Mar 29, 2008
Female, 35
Fulton, MS

I need help with finances. I have arthritis and lupus and am deaf and had to leave my job.I am a single mom supporting my daughter as well as my disabled mom and disabled sister and I get no child support. I have borrowed my friends and family to the max limits. I am behind on everything and desperately need money to pay my bills. Im 3 months behind on the house payment and have used every ounce of savings I had put away.  I have a paypal account (anoraonebay@yahoo.com ) donations can be sent to, anything will help and thanks in advance.

PS

I am in the process of trying to sell many items on ebay, so if you cant bring yourself to just make a donation, maybe I have something you want? Please check them out, every little dollar will help, heres the link http://search.ebay.com/_W0QQsassZanora_wolfe

PSS

Also, if you make a donation and want to see the bill you helped pay, just let me know and I will gladly share that info with you.

Thank you so much for your consideration,

 

 

UPDATE: I was thinking last nite I needed to be proactive in my own life. I feel like things are just "dead in the water", so to speak. I contacted Voc Rehab, who got me my hearing aids, cuz they said they would help me learn ASL (American Sign Language) too and were supposed to let me know something "soon"...well its been months and months, so I contacted them via email (its Sunday) but have gone one step further and contacted my local community college and enrolled in the ASL training program and I have found I qualify for financial aid and can get my courses free just based on my lack of income, so thats good news. Not so good news is its mid-session now, the courses I need are not offered over summer and that means I have to wait until fall term to get this moving....soooo again, not one to be discouraged, I have emailed the director of the program and asked her if there is anyway I can come "sit in" on any classes or some way to get private instruction so that I can do this sooner...like yesterday. So I am encouraged about this one thing in my life....      I was also thinking that if I go back to school, I still have all these crazy insane amount of credit card bills, medical bills, loans, etc who are knocking down my door....and in fact trying to kick me out of my door, since the house payment is 3 months behind so I checked with welfare....UGH I dunno where all those rumors and myths about folks sitting around "getting rich" off welfare came from....it may happen somewhere, but it aint happening in Mississippi thats for dang sure. On the TANF program, a needy person gets $110 for the first person and then $36 for the 2nd person and $24 for each additional person after that. So for myself and my daughter, we'd get a whopping $146 a month to live on....Im  very very discouraged on this point, because I was hoping that I could go back to school and finish my degree (ASL interpreting) and that would allow me to get a good job. BUT while Im in school full time, I was thinking maybe TANF would be enough to just "get by" and keep the bill collectors at bay until I was able to pay them myself....so much for that plan. Now Im at a loss for my next step.  I have a partial plan for school, but it does not help me keep myself out of jail for defaulting on these loans and it does not keep my utilities on or the house from being reposessed....

Any ideas, help, suggestions, loans, donations, thoughts & prayers, anything is appreciated

 

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