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Personal Statement: I believe in providing quality service with respect for others classes and values. It is my duty to use use knowledge to help individuals and families to grow, by empowering them using their strengths and values, to overcome obstacles, and effectively deal with lifes day to day challenges to achieve their goals.&&&&&&&&&&&&&In addition to providing professional counseling services, Sandra is also available for public speaking and conducting didactic and group therapy on the topics of, job stress, parenting, anxiety, depression, post traumatic stress disorder, and grief / loss, divorce. Sandra is qualified and available to provide supervision at the bachelor and masters level for Michigan licensure in social work, and for the National Association of Social Workers, ACSW credential. Sandra also is available to provide consultation presentations for groups in the community and at Job sites. 
Sandra Alger
LMSW/ACSW 

I am a smi disabled mother of two. I am single and I need dental as well as a well check up. I also am in need of housing that I can afford if you have any referrals I would be grateful I am homebound In the Phoenix pv school areas. You can contact me at bonjovi4ever73@yahoo.com

iis anyone readning my posts i haven't got an responds  am a caring,kind hearted person that just needs some help i am  disabled and low income anyone know of any help i am in need of help i can't pay 900.00 that is back owed for my car does anyone know of any programs that can help

Read my story. I am writing this to seek advice and funds to help find a lawyer and a medical expert.

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 The Suffering of
Larry W. Avent Jr
Medical Neglect/Late Diagnosis

Larry Avent Jr was born September 19, 2003. About 5 months before he was born the OBGYN doctor told us that something didn’t look right on the Ultrasound. He said that the fetus (baby’s’) bladder looked larger than it should be. He referred us to UNC Chapel Hill Hospital. I, Mother started to see the OBGYN Doctor there and had ultrasounds done about every two weeks. The UNC doctors told us that our baby would be born with Posterior Urethral Valves and his kidneys would be damaged. They also said that he would need to do dialysis and have a kidney transplant.
Larry Jr. stayed in the hospitals’ NICU for about a month ½, after he was born. He was fed by a tube; he had a lot of IV’s, and on the Oscillator machine. He had to have surgery (Ureterostomy) at 4 days old, due to the blocked urethras because he couldn’t release his urine. While he was in the NICU on the Oscillator machine, his head was laid on one side for a while and he had a sore on the right side of his head. We noticed it and told the Nurse and she informed the doctor. They ordered a cream to put on it. The sore went away but it left a bald spot on his head.
When Larry Jr was discharged from the hospital, he wasn’t on dialysis but the PD tube was placed, in case of an emergency to start dialysis. After two weeks of being at home, Larry had to go back because he was ill with an infection. His blood labs were off (potassium was high; kidney function was not too good). They started Peritoneal Dialysis on him around November 22, 2003. I, Mother had to learn to administer the dialysis, in order to take him home.
He went home around December 11, 2003. He did ok on the dialysis except for a couple of infections that were treated and he was released. Larry Jr was put on the Transplant list around August 2005.
The UNC Hospital called us with a cadaver kidney donor on March 27, 2006, to come and be evaluated for the kidney match. He was a match and received the kidney March 28, 2006. He did well with the transplant. He didn’t walk right after surgery. It took him a while to get his strength back in his legs but he still had a hop for a while. They had trouble getting him to take the medications. After awhile he started to take them better.
Larry Jr went home and did well except for taking his medication properly. He had labs drawn about three times a week and saw the UNC doctors regularly. He never missed an appointment. He started to become sickly around the first week of August. He complained of stomach pain, mouth pain and would vomit every so often. We took him to the emergency room, Halifax Regional for these symptoms but nothing they claimed showed. The local hospital called UNC every time we took him to the local hospital. They went by UNC Hospital orders. After a while, they noticed that his blood count/hemoglobin was LOW. They started treating him for anemia; giving him iron transfusions and also started the Pediatrician giving him an injection of Arenesp every two weeks. At his appointments, we kept telling them that something was wrong with him. We asked them were they missing something. They told us that the symptoms were normal.  At his last appointment before diagnosis, I called the Hospital begging them to check Larry Jr from head to toe. I, Mother told them that something was wrong with my baby.  He only received one due to the fact that his last appointment with his Pediatrician, he had a fever of 104. The pediatrician called the UNC doctors and informed them about the fever and the low blood count. They    had received the results back by then and told me they wanted him there at the Hospital right away. When we got there they told us that they got worried when I called and told them at his appointment that he needed to be checked from head to toe, so they gave him a special blood test. They said that he had EBV, which could turn into and act as a Lymphoma, because of taking the Anti-rejection drugs. We didn’t know it was serious but they told us that it was worrisome to them.
He had to do several test such as (bone marrow test, liver biopsy, MRI and so on). It took about two weeks to make a decision about what to give Larry Jr. He had to start Chemotherapy. They told us that he had Post transplant Lymphoproliperative Disorder caused by taking Prograf/anti-rejection drugs. He had lesions on his liver, spleen, lungs and lymph system. In this case he was Stage 3-4 and they were just diagnosing this because they were looking in the wrong direction. The Pediatric Nephrologist /kidney doctors told us that the Pediatric Onocologist would be taking care of him most of the time. He had to take Chemotherapy and they also had to reduce his medication (prograf). They told us about the Protocol, that they go by and asked us if we wanted to participate in the research. We told them if our son would have to go through any more pain, we didn’t want to, but if it was the same as going through the regular treatment, it was OK. They also told us that they didn’t think it was life threatening. They said that children usually do well with that Protocol. We accepted and signed the research paper. Dr. Blatt seemed like she cared more for the research than our sons’ treatment. We didn’t see her often. We saw Dr. Gold, Dr. Western, and the residents more. Well Larry Jr sat on the childrens' 5th floor at UNC for two weeks running fevers and vomiting. He got to the point he could hardly breathe before they moved him to the PICU.
*Larry Jrs' spleen had enlarged and was pressing on his lungs and Dr. Gold told us not to worry. They acted as if they had every thing under control. We had no idea our babyboy was dieing. He ended up losing his transplanted kidney, on Hemo dialysis (which he had never had before), Chemotherapy and much more. My son suffered before he died and we didn't have a warning.

I am a mother of a 2 year old son.  My husband and I try very hard to make a home for our family.  He lost his job the day after Christmas and has had trouble finding another one.  I have picked up some contract work, and am now working two contract jobs in addition to my full time job.  I was diagnosed 2 years go with multiple sclerosis, so the extra work is not an easy task.

Anyway, we got behind one month on our house payment and have been unable to catch up.  Our bank is demanding two months (the behind month plus this month) payment within 48 hours.  I don't have it and don't know what to do.

Hi, my name is Crystal. I'm a 21 year old, single, working, living on my own. I've had chronic depression for about 3 1/2 years now. My parents both work at walmart so they can't help me much financially in any aspect. I tried going to college right out of high school and did okay until halfway through, the room mates I had made it difficult to get school work done, but not just that, working long hours and going to school full time, living on my own, was a killer for me. I've been extremely discouraged to go to college, though I want to get my degree. I've had a very hard time having hope for my life though I'm sure it's not that bad. I want to get on anti-depressants to balance out of my mind. It feels so out of whack. Sometimes reality doesn't feel real and I feel like I'm going crazy. I think that if I got on anti-depressants, the things I do to try and get back on my feet again will help me stay on my feet. I have the motivation at times, but I can't seem to maintain it for long. My moods are up and down constantly, bi-polar if you will. It's been a very long 3 1/2 years struggling with this thing. I want to be well again. I want to be happy again and looking forward to having a family someday with a great husband and wonderful children. I had so many good goals and dreams before this depression came on. It is like a ditch that you just constantly fall into whenever you attempt to stay out. Almost like quicksand..the harder you struggle, the quicker you fall in. I just want to be normal again. The overwhelming emotions of loneliness, hopelessness, despair and fear control most aspects of my life at this point, socially, with work, with family, with myself. If there is anything anyone can do, I would greatly appreciate it. I have come to think that I can't defeat this monster on my own. I need help and I don't really know where to turn to.

Note: This aidpage was started as a comment on "Home page of Sandi1"

Sandra Alger, LMSW, ACSW is available to provide psychiatric counseling services in Grand Haven and Muskegon Michigan. Most insurances accepted and competative self pay rates.  Contact:  algershelp@yahoo.com. 

 Bio:
Overview: After passing the required Michigan Board of Social Workers exam, Sandra Alger was fully Licensed as a Masters Social Worker with a Clinical and Macro endorsement. Her nine years experience providing human services for Muskegon and Ottawa County area residents gave her clinical experience with groups, couples, families and individuals of all ages. Sandra has office hours at:
Grand Haven, Michigan
Muskegon, Michigan
 You may call for a free consultation with her at either location. Sandra received her masters degree in social work from Grand Valley State University. She also received continued education certificates in; Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy, Treatment of Anxiety Disorders, Working with the Self Injurer, and Effective Couples and Family Therapy.     Sandra accepts most insurances, including, Blue/ Cross Blue Shield, MESSA, Magellan, PPOM, Medicare Tri-care ect...and self pay.

Treatment Modalities: Clients benefit from Sandra's client centered approach to treatment, using the clients strengths with a focus on solutions. She uses an eclectic approach using the model which best fits the needs of the individual and family. -Treatment areas: Some of the issues Sandra provides treatment for include, Adjustment difficulties, Anxiety, Depression, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Job Stress, and Grief / Loss from death or divorce, and life adjustments. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Clients have expressed appreciation for her genuineness, her listening, ----------empowering, and advocacy skills with a focus on client strengths. Personal Statement: I believe in providing quality service with respect for others classes and values. It is my duty to use use knowledge to help individuals and families to grow, by empowering them using their strengths and values, to overcome obstacles, and effectively deal with lifes day to day challenges to achieve their goals. Some of the groups Sandra is active with are the Grand Haven area Chamber of Commerce, and the Greater Ottawa Area United Way. She is actively involved with Toast-Masters International, and WSSN, a professionals net work group. Sandra also dabbles with Legislation when issues arise to help the under-served / poor, elderly, and children. &&&&&&&In addition to providing professional counseling services, Sandra is also available for public speaking and conducting didactic and group therapy on the topics of, job stress, parenting, anxiety, depression, post traumatic stress disorder, and grief / loss, divorce. Sandra is qualified and available to provide supervision at the bachelor and masters level for Michigan licensure in social work, and for the National Association of Social Workers, ACSW credential. Sandra also is available to provide consultation presentations for groups in the community and at Job sites.
Sandra Alger
LMSW/ACSW 

We are a low income family looking for assistane to help us make it! Ok let me get a little bit more into detail on how we need help. My husband is a Iraqi veteran he is 27 yrs old and is now disabled he was injured in iraq, and when he came home was discharged from the military. I am unable to work out of the home due to this and our 3 children. We live in government housing and would really like to have our own home. please any info possible would be great!

i am bipolar and have not been able to afford my meds since november.  I thought i was doing okay, but bad things keep happening.  My son is in rehab for addiction, my mother has had two heart attacks, and my daughter had a spine surgeyr for scoliosis and got staph in it and they had to do a second surgery and she had a picc line in for 3 months.  Im divorced from an abuser of 23 years.  Im do medical typing and only get paid when im typing.  When i had to take care of my daughter and help my mom, i lost so much and had to take the equity out of my house.  I do not have any health insurance as I am considered an independent contractor so I have to pay for self insurance and it doesnt cover any of my bioplar medications.  Just my paxil was 228.00 for 30 pills, and I cannot afford to buy it anymore. Im so depressed that Im sleeping and giving up.  IM losing my home and its for sale right now.  I cant afford to go back to the psychiatrist because the bipolar meds they prescribe for me are brand name and my insurance will not cover.  i cannot afford a better plan.  theres so much more, i am just so desparate to get back on my depression medications without being manic so i can care for my family and just keep dinner on the table.  Im 45 and its becoming too much.  Im in menopause and cannot afford the hormone treatment which is also contributing to my depression.  I have lost about 30 pounds from anorexia from the depression.  Its 5 pm here now and i havent eaten all day.  i really just wish someone could help me.  The drug plans that offer free drugs, they take up to 90 days, and they only give small supplies, and i dont even qualify.  My income is considered to be at the federal poverty level, but yet when i turn for assistance, they say i make too much.  what can i do?  im so tired.

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Yes thats right, I love anime! I am in need of help and thats why I'm here (and no i dont need help about anime :)) If you have read my posted cry for help and are interested, Please, please E-mail me at: kelseyanne5@msn.com  

THANKS!

      I am soon to be 42 years old on September 24th of this year. I am divorced for 4 years now.  I have two children ages 21 and 18.  I was married for 17 years. My history is as brief as I can make it without too much unwanted detail.  I was molested at age 5 and at age 11. I was raped at 17 which was also my first experience "going all the way". The first boyfriend I had after that was physically abusive to me. I moved away after that to Pennsyvania where I live now. My first boyfriend here (also my ex-husband and father of my two children) was emotionally and mentally abusive to me.  I was financially dependent on him and being a child of divorce myself did not want my children to suffer the same as I did so I stayed in the marriage. It was not until one day when my daughter (at that time she was 16years old) told me that "she was not going to be like me when she grew up because her husband will never treat me like dad treats you!" that I realized staying in the marriage was actually hurting my children and causing them to lose respect for me rather than helping them in any way. In a nutshell my life has not been terrific.  My goals are to one day be financially, emotionally and mentally dependent upon myself.  I didn't even file for child support or monetary support for myself after the divorce because throughout our entire marriage all he ever seeemed to truly care about was money. I vowed that I would not take a dime from him and that if he loved it so much then he could just have it all. I was not in any emotional state to care about myself at the time.  All I wanted was to finally be free of his contstant control and criticism. To this day whenever he calls me my entire body just freezes and my blood pressure skyrockets so badly I don't even want to answer the phone.  So as you can imagine I have had a very rough time trying to carve out a new life for myself.  I don't dwell on the past consiously and I try to stay positive, but some where along this road I have been on I developed depression and bi-polar disorder along with several general health problems associated with stress and aging. Carving out a new life once seemed exciting but now its getting harder to see at all.  I have a new man in my life with his own set of problems but he is my best friend and we try to get each other over whatever bridges we encounter.  I hate to ask for help from anyone and just lately I had to ask my father to help me get a car so at least I could go back and forth to my doctors. In the meantime my Bob works every day of the week just to get us by.  We don't have credit card debt, we don't do drugs or drink alcohol and we don't cheat and steal.  We just have a high mortgage due to a refinancing scam that has taken us for virtually every dime we have and our lawyer can't seem to do anything about it.  We have faced getting turned down by other banks and mortgage companies because of this horrible company tacking on bogus charges upon bogus charges. We have tried Chapter 13 Banctruptcy but that does not help much because the house is all that we have and thats all we were trying to do is save our home.  We have 3 kids between us, two of which are going to college soon and my son who suffers from epilepsy and at 18 cannot even drive a car yet. Not only do I have to help myself get better but I have to find ways to get him to work and to his doctors appointments.  We have one large dog that you can't just take anywhere you go.  We can barely feed ourselves because the mortgage is so high. This is a 100 year old farmhouse and it needs so much work that I am afraid it won't even sell to get us out from under this madness.  So much for trying to start a new life, right? Anyhow, I just came upon this sight and decided to let it all out. I hope I haven't offended anyone here. Any help I can get would be greatly appreciated.  All I have to go on right now is my faith in god.  I'll keep praying, but I can't stop the crying. If you got this far in my letter then I thank you for allowing me to vent and I would be grateful even for your prayers.  Thank you, Lisa Simmons

i am a single mom of three little handsome boys. i recently found myself in a bad sitution. my childrens father left us 3 months ago. he was the only one employed. he left us in the trailor we all once shared, but with no way too keep up with the bills. i have tried every other source for fincial help. and my time has run out with them. now i am on here looking and hoping for help. i love my little boys more than life itself! they are the reason i am still here today. i suffer from bipolar (depression). which makes it very diffucult for me too hold down a job. i am scared of being in the public eye. all i need is $4000.00 to get it all squared away. im not asking it all from one person. from who ever. if any one is able too help even in the slighest little way, please contact me. alayze_18@yahoo.com

"Our only hope ls our children and olderfolk," Good God in heaven knows, the "powers that be" sure won't change their ways and help the backbone of america. Things went bad when we started moving Grandpa & Grandma out of the home into oldfolks homes. The kids lost precious teachings that are vital to life. The olderfolk lost their reason to be. All in the name of Bigger, better,faster and longer! We have a vast number of children lost in fostercare, on the street,and in broken homes. And with the great number of functioning olderfolk lets take some of the failing family farms and put them together? This is my idea. The children have not only lost the joys and lessons that Mom and Dad have no time to teach. But what is more, They don't learn how to be Human. Look around, We are in deep we must begin with our children so that when they are "The powers that be" they wil treat their familys with a bit more Humanness. One farm is all we need to start.   A. Hillbilly

One cannot begin to understand my levels of frustrations.

This is why
LET ME PUT IT LIKE THIS. I AM DROWNING AND GRABBING AT STRAWS. WOULDN'T ANY ONE?



I SPEND HOURS ON END BEGGING FOR HELP, AND I HAVE FOR ABOUT A YEAR NOW, NO BODY CAN ASSIST ME. THIS IS A TYPICAL RESPONSE FROM GOVEERMRNT AGENCIES. A CONSTANT BATTLE.



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NO ONE WANTS TO BE RESPONSIBLE, OR TO ADDRESS MY ISSUES. I HAVE TONS OF THESE KINDS OF RESPONSES. BUT NO ONE EVER ACTUALLY CONTACTS ME. IT'S BEEN GOING ON FOR MONTHS ON END.

PLEASE, I NEED HELP NOW, DISABLED, NO INCOME, , TAXES, FORECLOSUE

    I . I have been extremely ill, and so disorganized. I do not
> want another levy on my wife's income. I have no income and we are about
> to lose our home, and everything. My illnesses are so severe that I am
> incapacitated the majority of the time.   >
> I cannot focus, I am in severe pain daily, SEVERELY DEPRESSED. SYMPTOMS:
> INABILITY TO FOCUS OR CONCENTRATE.
> INABILITY TO DEAL WITH LIFE'S CIRCUMSTANCES.
> IN AN ALMOST CONSTANT STATE OF PANIC.
> OVERWHELMED BY TRYING TO SAVE OUR HOME, PAY OUR BILLS, AND DEAL WITH
> LIFE.
> FEELINGS OF HOPELESSNESS, HELPLESSNESS.
> CONSUMED BY THOUGHTS OF DEATH, TRAGIC EVENTS.
> CONSUMED BY OBSESSIVE THOUGHTS AND ROUTINES.
> I HAVE SEVERE PAINS, AND IMMOBILIZED MOST OF THE TIME.
> LACK OF MOTIVATION.
> LACK OF INTEREST IN THINGS I WOULD NORMALLY ENJOY.
> PANIC, FEAR, PHOBIAS.
> SEVERE MUSCLE TIGHTNESS, PREVENTING ME FROM DOING SIMPLE TASKS.
> RECENTLY DIAGNOSED WITH PERIPHERAL NEUROPATHY AND CARPAL TUNNEL SYNDROME.
> SEVERE PAINS IN MY NECK, UPPER BACK, ARMS, TORSO.
> UNABLE TO FOCUS OR COMPREHEND CERTAIN THINGS.
> COMPLETELY BROKE, ALMOST NO MONEY AT ALL.
> BILLS PILED UP, SO BAD, SCATTERED EVERYWHERE.
> I HAD ALL THE INFORMATION TOGETHER TO FILE THESE RETURNS, BUT WHEN I
> DECIDED TO TRY TO TACKLE THE RETURNS, I COULD NOT FIND MY WIFE'S W-2'S.
> TROUBLE SPEAKING WITH PEOPLE ON THE PHONE.
> TROUBLE AND PHOBIAS OF BEING IN PUBLIC PLACES.
> I MISS NUMEROUS DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS BECAUSE I AM WITH TOO SICK, IN TOO
> MUCH PAIN, AND/OR CANNOT AFFORD THE CO-PAY.
> CANNOT AFFORD MY MEDICATIONS.
> NO FOOD IN THE HOUSE, NO MONEY TO BUY FOOD.
> I AM IN A VERY SERIOUS AND URGENT SITUATION AND HAVE BEEN BEGGING FOR HELP
> FROM MANY ORGANIZATIONS, ETC FOR MONTHS ON END, ALL TO NO AVAIL.
>
>
>>A person with severe mental impairments and disabilites should have
> a way to file his or her taxes without having to pay out of his or her
> pocket, and someone to assist, advise, and protect the taxpayer.
>
> Also, the penatiles and interest have accumilated, while I had no way of
> paying the principal taxes because of the severity of my disabilties. I
> have no income.

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 I have recently gone through back surgery and have not been able to work due to that. My husband has just recently been layed off from his job and has also broken his ankle . Our house is desperate need of remodeling  and our debt is building up right as we speak. Have no income coming in to by groceries or nessities.

Hello my name is Bob. For some reason I was taged with Bobrobert, its ok. Here is my problem. Please advice would truly be appreciated. At 54 I have been dealing with Heart Disease for the last 9 yrs. I have 3 stents, and am 40-50% blocked in all arteies. My doctor has said that because Ive been on my medication for so long that in some people fatigue sets in. Boy was he rite. So now I suffer from Chronic Fatigue along with what the dr thinks is depression. I am so numb and paralyzed with fear and stress that just getting out of bed is a challenge. I hate myself for getting into this jam. In Jan 07 I lost my construction job of 12 yrs ( house painter), I know it was no great skilled job but it paid the bills. Ive tried getting work but think painting is more of a younger person job, I don't know. I have 2 old pets I dearly love. Daisy and Rose. Daisy my old dog and Rose the cat. They truly keep me entertained. Loosing my job and not find work and not having the strength to look has really but me in dire straits as they say.  Im afraid Im going to be kick out of my 2 rm. apt. ( 2 mos.behind in rent) State agencies said theres a 2yr waiting list for housing. Plus only a 1 Pet rule. I could never get rid of my pets. Their all I have. Im lost. I have run out of money, meds, food, gas, you name it and Ive pretty much dont have it. Please I tried my local community funds, state and gov. agenceys, all have waiting list age requirerments or pet rulings. Im afraid my time is running out.My e-mail address is spicerbrown@gmail.com

 Hello,  My name is Jeanie.  I am  57 years old, and at the very end of my emotional rope! I am out of money out of time, and out of options. I do not know where to turn!  God help me Please!!  I have been separated from my husband for over a year.  Since then I have held several jobs all of which were complete dead ends. My husband is a retired factory worker living on a very fixed income, and he is unable to support me financially outside of our marriage.
 When he retired from his job we moved South, and I gave up a full time job. I had to move from there back to my home state where I am originally from, because I could not afford to live in a separate residence in the South. Nor could either one of us afford to get a divorce, because we could not afford to pay lawyers.  I gave up my home, and  all rights to it because my husband had promised me that he would “help me out”,  NOT!!  I was naïve in assuming that he would. He had promised me that he would pay off my credit cards and give me a substantial part of what our home was worth. I was very stupid not to have obtained this in writing.  Needless to say he didn’t do what he promised. I moved back to my home state using credit I did not really have to use. 
 Once I had gotten settled I did obtain a good job, but I was seriously under qualified for it.  I accepted the job because I desperately needed an income at the time.  I lasted at that job for approx.. 5 months, and it was very it was a very stressful period trying to fit into a job that I did not have the experience for.  My employer finally let me go, with assurances that I would be able to get unemployment.  NOT!!  I did not qualify for unemployment because I did not make enough within a certain period, and because I had not worked long enough. Since then I have been working the odd jobs for a temp agency, but those odd jobs were few. 
 I come from an era where the wife stayed at home while the husband went out and earned a paycheck.  I would have worked outside our home, but my husband preferred me at home. I was a housewife and mother for many years and I do not regret those years.  My children are now grown and doing well in their own lives.  But because I stayed home and took care of my home and raised my children, I have not the “marketable” skills that would make it possible for me to obtain a good job and earn a comfortable living.  I also have several age related ailments, while not disabling, make it very difficult for me to work a full-time job outside my home.  I would love to get training in a marketable skill and develop a business, and work from my home. I could possibly obtain a grant, (impossible to get unless you hire someone),  or educational loan for training,….(govt. grants)……“this is also a huge money making machine for internet scammers!!!” 
 I am unable to hold down a full-time job and go to school at the same time. It is more than I can handle at my age, considering my current health situation.  I have a disease called, “cervical spondylosis”.  It is very painful and debilitating.  I also have bone spurs in the heels and pads of my feet, osteoarthritis, and a small tumor at the base of my brain. Thankfully this tumor is, as far as I know, benign.  I have been told by my doctor that I need to have yet another MRI, of which I have had many!  I can not afford it!   I tried to get help from a community organization called, “Volunteers In Medicine”, but …..again I do not qualify because I have to be completely uninsured. This is another reason I have not yet tried to obtain a divorce,  as long as I remain married, I am still under his insurance. 
 I am not a lazy person, I exercise and try to keep myself in shape, but I have been so severely depressed that some days I can not even function. I have scoured the internet in hopes of finding some kind of work at home, for an online job.  God help me!  Several months ago….as now,  I was so desperate for a way to make some money that I fell for an internet scam.  It was one of those “Nigerian” scams.  I was very stupid and very naïve, and very desperate.  Desperate people will do stupid stuff, as I well know.  As a result of that scam my bank account was wiped out, along with some of the banks money.  I tried everything to get help.  I called all the Federal offices I could think of.  Secret Service, CIA, FBI, etc., you name it and I called it.  No one would help me.  I understand how being involved might have made me look less than innocent, but I truly did not realize until it was too late.  I was an unknowing participant.  I have always been a very trusting individual and willing to believe that there are honest people in this world.  But, my trust has been betrayed time and again. Just a couple of weeks ago now I was talked into investing money I don’t even have on an internet business that I was promised would earn me quick money. I had one credit card with some credit left on it, now I have none!  Scammed again!!! I am sick to death of all the lies, and untruths that are flooding the internet!!  These people were very smooth and they know just what to say to have you believing them!!  How do these people sleep at night knowing what they do to people!!! I am not a dummy, just way too trusting.
 My trust in our Government to protect its American Citizens against fraud and other unscrupulous acts has been broken.  Our government officials and the politicians who are running this United States Government are all out for themselves, first and foremost.  They sit around giving themselves raises probably with our tax dollars, while people like me are lost in the shuffle of government bureaucracy. 
 Now I find myself in the position of having to beg someone to save me from living in the streets.  I have been living off credit for some months just to survive. Now my credit is shot and I can not obtain a loan, needless to say.  I do at least have a good vehicle, about the only thing I got from my marriage worth anything,  but even it is going to need maintenance soon.  I am praying for a miracle because I am all out of time and money.  I am tired and my spirit is broken, and I am very scared.  I have registered with 2 websites where folks are allowed to “beg for money”.  On one of them I have yet to receive any help, and the other site, I paid for the opportunity to tell my story, they took my money and never did publish the story!! I do at least have this computer and I have been working as a, “chat host”,  for a couple of internet sites. Basically chat hosting means stripping for money. It is NOT what I want to do, but was forced to do to survive!  I do not want to live this way!!! 
 Someone please help me to make my life worth living.  I just want a chance to be someone before its too late for me!!  I have rent due in 2 days, and I do not have the money to pay for it.  God help me!!  Please!!!  If anyone can find it in their heart to help me I know that it could change my life for the better!  Is there anyone out there who really cares????  If there is, please renew my faith, and I will get down on my knee’s and pray to God to bless you, and Thank You All!!!!!

Sincerely,
Jeanie

A little background information. I am 40, almost 41 years old, married with two beautiful daughters ages 8 and 5 and disabled since April 2001. I receive Social Security Disability but we all know that it does not come close to a regular pay check. Before I got sick, my wife and I were both working and our combined income was close to $85K per year. I began getting sick in 1999 with acid reflux or GERD. I went through every drug on the market and using each above the recommended maximum dosage with little or no relief. When it began eating away at the lining of my esophagus to the point I was developing holes in the lower portion near the point where it connects to the stomach and spilling into my lungs so badly that they thought I had developed asthma, their only other option for me was a surgical procedure called fundoplication. This procedure takes the upper portion of the stomach and and wrap it around the esophagus to tighten the valve to prevent the acid from coming back up and to cover the holes. It was supposed to be a laproscopic procedure where I had it done on one day, spend the night in the hospital and go home the next morning. My maximum time off work was to be two weeks. I actually left the hospital on the day I was supposed to return to work. When I kind of came to on the first day after having the laproscopic procedure go so badly that I had to be opened up the full length of my abdomin so that they could try to fix what they did that almost killed me plus I was in intensive care. The next day, they did a test where I drank some awful tasting mess so they could check for any leaks in my stomach or anything. Guess what, they stated that they found leaks and back into the operating room I went where they took everything they did the day before apart and did it all again. This time when I woke up, again in intensive care, I was on a ventolator for a week. They took the thin lining that is between your organs and your skin to keep then from growing to each other to wrap my stomach and seal off the 3 or 4 places that it tore open during the laproscopic surgery. During the first, laproscopic, surgery, in addition to my stomach tearing open in 3 places, my liver was cut/damaged to the point that the gave me at least 4 units of blood. I haven't been able to work since then. I have constant diarrhea, abdominal pain which is increased when I eat anything at all, on a scale of 1 to 10, I stay around 8 or 9 all the time. I also have a partial small bowel obstruction that will eventually have to be surgically fixed. The obstruction(s) are caused from the extreme amount of scar tissue that I have in my abdomin which is why they don't want to operate again until they absolutely have to. I have been admitted to the hospital 12 times in just the past 3 years and have already had to have surgery to correct a blockage in my colon. My small intestines, colon and I don't know what else is attached to my skin where the lining was removed. I cannot lift anything more than 5 to 7 pounds, pull, strain, climb, crawl  nor stand, sit or lye down for more than about an hour and a half at a time because of the pain. I also have areas that are close to herniating which will also cause another surgical procedure. When they admit me for a blockage, I spend a week there with a tube down my nose (NG Tube), in my stomach connected to a suction pump to pull all of that stuff back out and clear the blockage, for then anyway. One, I cannot even stand to think about any other surgery and two, the doctors don't want to do it either.  In addition to all of that, and I left some things out, I have degenerative disk disease in my back, my spine has lost it's curve at the end where the tail bone is. Also, I have to sleep with a CPAP machine because of sleep apneia and have to take medicine during the day because I also have narcolepsy. Dealing with all of this has caused depression, anxiety and post traumatic stress disorder from the surgery. I still and always will deal with these health issues and mental stress from now on. Because of all of my problems, it's obvious that my wife had to leave her job to care for my and our children so we have been trying to make it on Social Security Disability which is getting harder and harder every day. We have already gone through our savings and 401(k)'s to survive and keep our home and a vehicle. Our credit is shot because we have had the 2 cars that we had when this all happened repossessed. Also, all of the other credit we had then, fell behind and pretty much totally destroyed our credit. We are behind one house payment and the mortgage company is a pain to deal with and absolutely refuse to offer any assistance at all. I am still trying to pay some on my hospital co-payments that are now pushing a total of close to $10K and I never know from day to day when I may have to go back. Plus, like everyone else, I have the normal power, phone, cable, water, trash pickup, car payment, car insurance, homeowners insurance, food and school things for our girls. We also heat and cook using propane gas. We have been without propane for 95% of the winter and we are out now which means we heat with small electric heaters and cook on a hot plate, microwave or small toaster oven. Right this moment, we have a total of maybe $5 to last two more weeks and it's about to drive us crazy. We can't cook, heat nor watch TV because the cable has been turned off until I can get money to pay them in two weeks. I am the type of person who hates to have to ask others for help. I would rather help others than to ask for help but I don't have much of a choice right now. Our families, our church and our friends have been great during all of this but they all have their own bills and families to take care of also. Any help would greatly be appreciated! May God bless you!