I am a single grandma raising a grandchild. I have three grown children, thirteen grandchildren. I have managed to survive a divorce, put myself through college and obtained a job. Although I don't make alot, I help many people in what I do.

I am great at being available to help others, but am poor at helping myself. I am in need of help because although I am employed, I don't make enough to make ends meet. Currently, I am in need of a home and would greatly appreciate any help providing a Christmas to my granddaughter. She is the light of my life.

I have many grandchildren to share my love with, but this one is like my own. She actually is not a biological grandchild, but kind of an inherited one. I've managed to give her a good set of values, and she works to get good grades, is cooperative at home, and is always available to help my other grandchildren. This in itself speaks of the goodness within her.

I truly need help, feel desparate and don't know where to turn. I am not eligible for help because she is not my child although I have legal court ordered custody. I am such a disappointment to her, as I cannot provide for her. My wages go to feed her, pay for my vehicle and insurance and that is all. I need the car for work, as well as for us to sleep in. I am ashamed of how poorly I have done in life.

I am very capable of more, but just can't seem to get the breaks that many others do. I don't ask for the system to support me, but rather to find a better way to support myself and move forward in life. My goal is to write a book on my life as a foster child (BAD).

I am a great resource for helping others find help if they are in the low income bracket or have disabilities.

Well its been a long spiral into hell. In the last 6 years I have lost my parents and a sister. I have lost a great job, and my health. Now I owe so much money, not a massive amount, but enough to put me into the street in days. A little to everyone. I can't even file the papaerwork for income taxes in time, I owe that will lead to a whole new world of hurt and despair. I feel terribly hopeless and very depressed. I can't seem to get an even break. I don't know what else to do or where to turn.There's not much light in my life and I'm beginning to feel like I just want it all to end. I am tired of this financial torture. I am spent trying to make it just to survive. No one seems to think I'm worthy of help to stay alive. I have nothing left. No where to go. Nothing to eat. No where to live very soon. The last thing before my life that I'm willing to give up is my only friend, my dog. If need be we will die together.

I feel like I'm hanging by a thread.

So if anyone can help with a roof over our heads and some assistance to get out of hell, and back to the land of the living, I would be forever grateful.

April 30,2008

Never mind, it's not like there is really anyone who cares out there. I'm done trying to get by and just survive. Its appalling that this can happen in this country. I'm have worked all my life and now that I can't I deserve to die, well I fucking guess so! We are homeless now and I am not going to live in my compact car for long, and as soon as I get my painkiller prescription refilled, me and my dog bid you farewell. We will be together in pergatory forever I fucking guess eh fucking GOD!!!Fuck you GOD! We are outta here for good. This site is usless, thanks Canada, thanks for nothing.

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