I am a mother of 3 beautiful girls! They are the best thing that ever happened to me but the worst thing that happened to my teeth! When I was younger I always went to the dentist, always took care of them, even had braces but that is where everything went wrong. My local dentist for my braces said I would have them for a year well 2 years later and a modeling contract it was time for them to come off. That was the worst mistake I could have ever made! Boy was he mad, infact so mad he ripped them off and cracked my back teeth were the brackets were. Ever since then it has been very hard for me to go to the dentist because of fear of them hurting me again. Once I became pregnant and the fact that I am allergic to milk came into affect, my teeth slowly chipped, decade, and now are falling apart. I am missing teeth, well the tops, and it is hard for me to eat, let alone smile. I feel like a dirtball when I go to my daughters schools. I do the very best of taking care of them, making sure they have everything they possibly need in this world but can not do anything about my smile! I had to file bankruptcy 2 years ago and can not get a loan to cover the full amount of the cost to exstract all of my teeth and get dentures. I live in a small town in Ohio and have no way of getting the info I need to maybe help me. If anyone could share info with me it would be greatly appreciated. Thank You, Ericka

    Hey how are you doing?  Unfortunatly I could be better. I need to have surgery on my arms becase I got into a motorcycle accident and burned my forarms on the exahust pipes and need to have a skin graft done on them. It is keeping me from go back to college for computers because I have to constantly look for money to live. I cant do any physical work no matter how much I want to just to make an income , because I need to keep my arms wrapped up and dirt free and sweat free. So I am in a crappy situation. Please if anyone can help me financially I need to raise at least $3,500.00 . I would be in dept to you . I need to pay for surgery and living expences . Once I recover I want to finish my school for computers and get a good paying job. I will then come back and look for people to help on these pages. I believe what comes around goes around, so If I get helped here so I can be in a situation to help somone down the road . I will give back to the comunity and these aid pages . I hopoe somone reads this and has it in there heart to help me. I never asked anything from anyone before and this is odd to do this, I am not used to asking for help but I am in a situstion that I need it.  Any questions email me and I will gladly answer them as best as possible.    thanks for your help Michael2

I need to come up with  $3500.00 for the surgery and also I would lioke to go back to school !

I need to start a pledge if anyone can help please let me know!

my email is michaelvoros@cox.net if anyone wants to help i would be eternally greatfull!!!

I am in need of finacial help, as soon as possible.

I was on disabilitie until they cut me off in Nov. 2005,

Without prior notice. I was not prepared for this, so now I am

in dire need of some money to get caught up on my utilies and rent.So I won't end up homeless.Any donation to my emergency would be deeply appreciated, Thank You and God Bless.

Still in need of help!  Dealing with Financial troubles badly!  our home is in forclosure and were about to lose everything!  Can't believe that I have been looking for help since Last year to keep from getting this way, and nothing but scammer after scammer gets in touch with me!  there doesn't seem to be anyone out there anymore that has a soul that would or even could help anyone that is having trouble anymore.  been working on getting things caught up but still falling behind with everrything going up all the time.  just about can live or raise a family!  want has this world gotten too.  it's a shame!  I pray all the time that things get better and so far nothing is working right for me.  I have faith and my heart keeps telling me that things are going to get better, but I hope I'm not trying to raise a family in the streets by the time that this would come true.  God Bless all of US!

Hello:

          I am mentally disabled and unable to work or even go into public sometimes. I have recently lost my housing, because I could not go to work at my job. I AM HOMELESS......awaiting mental health housing through cascadia housing program, but the waiting list is long. I have income through SSD but it is fixed and only 579.00 a month. Can someone please help with a rental for no more than 200.00 a month in portland oregon?

To Whom It May Concern:

I am almost at the end of my rope as Christmas approaches this year.  I have no place to turn.  After a lot of prayer I turned to searching the internet for financial help and found this site where I am allowed to post my wish.

I'll try to make this as short and to the point as possible. . . . . in fact I updated this on 12-19 because the first draft was way too long. . . . . . . My problem started in late July of this year, (2006) although I didn't find out about it until almost the end of August. Through no fault of my own, my bank account (both savings and checking) were compromised and completely cleaned out!  Leaving me with ZERO, when there had been over $25,000.00 the week of July 1st!!!!!  My bank's Fraud Division is still investigating and will only tell me that the entire amount is rarely recovered! 

I am left with the task of trying to cover all the NSF checks that were returned for all my bills written in August - over $2800 worth of checks and extra charges! I have been unable to work since 2003, therefore it has been quite impossible to do this on only my spouse's income.  Each month new bills arrive placing the current amounts farther behind!

I am searching for any job I can do, but without success thus far. The water was turned off for 2 weeks while I ravaged through belongings to sell to cover the past due amount PLUS a $75 deposit they wanted.  Showering and filling jugs of water at my daughter's house to manage.  Same thing happened with the power, including their requiring an extra $100 as a deposit to turn it back on.  But, it was only off for 24 hours before I found something to sell.  I could NOT risk losing everything in the freezer. 

I've kept my car payment almost current, making a payment just prior to the 30-day mark.  But, that caused me to get behind on the HOUSE payment! As of December 1st, three payments are now due ($2800+) and I have no resources to which to turn.  I cannot lose this house!  We put a substantial down payment on it, and already sunk more into it with some remodeling, before this problem hit.  I'm much too old to lose it and not physically able to move belongings!  Besides, I could never come up with deposits that would be needed to move elsewhere, nor be able to rent moving help.

I tried applying for food stamps and assistance, but was told that my spouse "makes too much" to qualify.   Exactly $2 too much!!!! And no one will help us on the utility bills because he works! I suppose if we were both just lying around watching TV they would help?  Makes me rethink where my donations money will go in the future!

I cannot borrow anything from the bank, because our good credit is now ruined from getting behind.  Everyone wasted no time in reporting the 30-60 days past due items!  I also recently discovered that of the handful of job interviews I've had so far, most likely all disregarded my experience after running a credit check.  I had no idea possible employers can run a credit check until I read it in an article in the classified section of our newspaper!  That seems quite unfair!  My credit situation of present has nothing to do with my ability to do a good job for someone! And, of course, it will take a couple of years to repair it.  Sheesh!  As I stated in the beginning,  I am at the end of my rope.  I do not know where else to turn.  But, I will continue my job search.

I have even tried to think of a way to do a fund-raiser where many people might care to donate $10-$100 each to help total up the amount I need to keep my house. But, I'm embarrassed to spearhead this myself and not quite sure of the legalities of such a thing. How would I word something like this for a newspaper ad? And be able to keep my identity quiet? Without it appearing to be a scam?

PLEASE!  I don't where else to turn.  Any kind donation would be greatly appreciated  as I continue to pray for a more permanent solution.

I don't mind posting my email address, if anyone wishes to use PayPal to send a donation. I will gladly answer any question you may have, if you write me.  

God bless any who find it in their hearts to help. 

"And this too shall pass"

"Nana"  - PTnananeecie@aol.com   (please use subject line: Help for House) so I won't accidentally delete your mail, or in case it comes into my spam box instead.

IS MY LIFE WORTH A DOLLAR????

 My story is probably a bore to most of you.  I married at 14 years old, had two children and have been married for 44 years to the same man.  He is a good man that has been good to me and the children.  My children married and have children so I am a grandmother and now a great-great grandmother.  I am so proud of my family.  My husband and I had 50.00 when we got married and we went to K-mart and bought two towels, two washcloths and toothpaste.  We lived on crackers and peanut butter for two weeks until payday!  We both came from large families who worked hard and paid our bills.  We didn’t have much but we were happy.  We both worked two jobs and went to school at night to get an education.

 Over the years many things have happened in my life. I had to leave my job because of illness, Lupus, many things started happening to me health wise.  Lupus affects everything.  I now have so many different illness and medicines to take it is depressing. I think losing my hair on top of it all is the worst because being a woman everyone stares.  It will not grow back.  It isn’t because of the chemo but because of the Lupus. But I have kept on.  Maybe one day I will get some help with that too.

We have never been rich or really even well off  but we were comfortable. Then my daughter went through a terrible divorce. He didn’t care if the kids had food or anything. We tried to help our daughter keep her house and keep the kids in clothes and etc.  This put a strain on us, but that is how we were raised to help each other.

 When my husband retired after 40 years on the job he didn’t have a 401k or anything like that but we thought we could make it.  He started working part time as soon as he retired because they would not insure me anymore. (This we didn’t know) I felt bad about that but we did what we had to.

 After going through so much financially a “friend” told us he could double or even triple what savings we had.  I was so excited and I trusted him.  Well the “friend” is gone and so is the money.  Like it never existed.  We finally found her but the money was gone. My illness has also drained us, but this was devastating.  I trusted this person and now we are so in debt we could lose our home.  I am responsible for this because I did it.  I can’t look my husband in the eye anymore.  I can’t pay my bills now and will lose my home if something doesn’t happen soon.  I kept praying something would come up and a heavenly angel would help us.  Didn’t happen.  But I still believe in Angels.  Maybe they are internet Angels!!!!

 I have been so depressed I get closer and closer to just ending it all. I have given myself so much time to either get some help or do what I have to do.  I want to live a long life with my family but I am so ashamed of what I have done. My husband doesn’t deserve this nor my family.  Then….. I accidently came across this site.  Could???  Would??? Someone help me???  Please………… if you could send something, anything I would appreciate it.  If I come out of this I will do whatever it takes to always help someone else in this situation.  I have always helped anyone never dreaming someone could be this desperate.  Life is not worth living right now. My nerves are terrible making the disease get worse

I came across this website by accident. Maybe it is a God sent. I don't know.  Maybe someone out there cares.  

 Is my life worth a dollar to anyone? I know there are thousands of people out there and I thank you for listening.  Please keep me in your thoughts. I am desperate. God Bless.  Paypal or mail.  Anything appreciated.

Email   slaspin60@yahoo.com

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Need HELP... PLEASE...had a Heart Attack haven't been able to work for 3 months, been in and out of hospital. No FAMILY living, to turn to except ex-wife which had cancer and can't support all my needs....HARD to get CREDIT for HELP, with bad credit from previous marriage...I stand a chance on losing everything and out on the street with a bad heart..I've tried everywhere...there has been no one out there to help....

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*********UPDATE ALL THINGS ARE TURNING ROUND!!!!***************

Thanks for taking the time to read. I am very glad that there is a place like this where we can ask for help and not judge others on what they need help with. I am very greatful that there are others able to help people they do not even know and are still able to manage their own "stuff" and I know that if you can set aside your judements of what others may put here, you set aside others making judgements of you weather you reaolize it or not. If all you can do is just send best wishes and prayers to everyone then that is most acceptable. I believe we were all put on this earth to help eachother and some day I will be able to get that chance.

We need help in many areas as we are far behind in many things. To give you a fair idea about how far behind I am and to let you see what number you can best assist with, here is a list for each thing that I am behind on.

If you are able to help with anything listed here, email me with the number and I will explain further what I owe in that catagory. Thanks!

I owe the following; 

1. Crediters
2. Family
3. Rent
4. Phone
5. Cable
6. I have to  get my daughter her Grade eight School Graduation Trip paid back
7. Clothes for us both 
8. Camera
9. Shoes for us both 

Again, Thanks for taking the time to read. Thanks for your help in advance and best wishes throughout the year!

My name is John Davis,Im 34 and live in Frankston Texas.I am in need on dental work bad but cant afford it at the moment. I am embarresed to smile and cannot eat without discomfort or fear of more damage to my teeth.If anyone can help please let me know. Thank you for your time and consideration.my email is johndindfw@aol.com

First off I would like to say Merry Christmas and thank  you for even taking the time to read this.  My name is Lacey  I am 21 and a single mother of two beautiful boys, Dante who is 1 and devon who is 2.  This past july their father was shot and killed when he came home to someone trying to break in.  I had to move in with my parents because I didn't make enough to support myself and my kids without thier father's help. I was able to save up some money for christmas, but then had to spend to get my car fixed after it broke down.  Now I have no money and can't get help from my parents due to the fact my mother is sick and can't work, and they are having to pay my grandmother's health care due to the fact that she just had breast cancer surgery last week.  I really don't like to ask for help, but this is the first that my oldest son really undertands about Santa and is so excited about Christmas and i don't want to dissapoint him.  Thank You again for reading this, and if you could help in any way please email me at laceysalas84@yahoo.com  Thank you.

HI, MY NAME IS DENISE. IM SINGLE 34 YEARS OLD AND WITH THREE BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS, AGES: 16,11,9

GOD SENT ANGELS TO OUR WORLD, KNOWN AS HUMAN BEINGS.

PLEASE WHEN READING MY STORY, I ASK THAT YOU READ IT WITH AN OPEN MIND AND HEART.

I GREW UP IN A VERY SMALL TOWN. THERE'S WAS NOTHING FOR TEENAGERS TO DO. BUT GET INTO TROUBLE.  I MET MY OLDEST DAUGHTERS DAD WHEN I WAS 14, AND HE WAS 29.(I KNOW YOUR MOUTH IS PROBABLY HANGING ON THE GROUND)  I BELIEVE THE REASON MY PARENTS ALLOWED ME TO DATE HIM WAS BECAUSE, ONCE I MET HIM I QUIT GETTING INTO TROUBLE WITH THE SCHOOL, THE LAW, AND I QUIT PARTYING.  I GOT PREGNANT AT 15, MOVED OUT AND HAVE BEEN ON MY OWN EVER SINCE.  MY BABY'S DADDY WAS VERY PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY ABUSIVE. HE WAS VERY CONTROLLING. I MADE A PROMISE TO MYSELF THAT I WAS GOING TO GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL KNOW MATTER WHAT.  I  WORKED MY BUTT OFF, GOING TO DAY SCHOOL, AND ALSO NIGHT SCHOOL, TAKING CARE OF A BABY, AND WORKING A PART TIME JOB. BUT I DID IT!  AFTER 5YEARS OF ABUSE, I FINALLY GOT THE NERVE TO LEAVE HIM.

 I WAS SINGLE FOR 2 MONTHS WHEN I MET MY EX-HUSBAND. WE WHERE MARRIED ALLMOST 14 YEARS. WE HAD THE PERFECT PICTURE FAMILY. HE HAD A GOOD PAYING JOB. AND I ALSO HAD A GOOD PAYING JOB WORKING FOR THE POST OFFICE.  THE LAST 5YRS OF OUR MARIAGE I STARTED TO ABUSE PAIN PILLS. LORATABS THEN OXY'S(PHARMACITACUL HERION) IT DID NOT TAKE LONG BEFORE THE PILLS WAS NOT ENOUGH. SO I TRIED METH. THATS ALL IT TOOK WAS ONE HIT. JUST ONE HIT! AND I WAS HOOKED. I CONTINUED TO TO BE THE PTA, GIRL SCOUTS MOM. KNOW BODY HAD ANY CLUE THAT I WAS USEING METH. EVEN MY HUSBAND DIDNT KNOW, HE KNEW I WAS ABUSING THE PILLS.

I HAD BEEN HAVING  GRAND MALL SEIZURES ABOUT THREE YEARS.  THE DR. DID NOT KNOW WHY I WAS HAVING THEM.  HE THOUGHT MAYBE IT COULD OF BEEN FROM A CAR ACCIDENT I WAS IN 15YRS EARLIER.  I KNEW WHY I WAS HAVING SEIZURES, BUT I WASNT GOING TO TELL MY FAMILY.

  THE LAST SIX MONTHS OF OUR MARRIAGE, THE DRUGS HAD TOOKEN OVER MY LIFE. I STARTED TO SPEND MY WHOLE PAY CHECK FOR DRUGS. I NEVER WENT TO THE BARS, NEVER WENT OUT PARTYING. I WAS WHAT YOU WOULD CALL A CLOSET USER BEFORE THAT. THEN I STARTED TO TAKE OFF FOR THE WHOLE WEEKEND, RENTING A MOTEL ROOM SO I COULD GET HIGH ALL WEEKEND LONG. I STARTED TO MISS ALOT OF WORK. I WAS IN A VICIOUS CYCLE AND DID NOT KNOW HOW TO GET OUT. I DECIDED TO CHECK MYSELF INTO REHAB. I DETOXED THERE FOR 7 DAYS. BUT I HAD SO MUCH PAIN INSIDE AND  GUILT  FOR WHAT I DID TO MY HUSBAND AND KIDS AND MY FAMILY,(EXPICALLY MY DAD AND MY SISTER ESTHER)  I COULDNT HANDLE IT.   I WAS GOING OUT. AND I WAS GOING OUT USING DRUGS. SO I CHECKED MYSELF OUT OF REHAB AND DROVE STRAIGHT TO MY DEALERS HOUSE.  I WAS THERE 7DAYS. IN THAT 7DAYS I SPENT EVERYTHING I HAD SAVED $3000.00 ON ANY KIND OF DRUG AND ALCOHOL I COULD GET. THEY SAID I WAS HAVING SO MANY SEIZURES.  I REMEMBER COMING TO AFTER A SEIZURE, AND THE FRONT OF ME WAS COVERED WITH BLOOD FROM ME GETTTING SICK. I'D CHANGE MY CLOTHES AND GO SMOKE SOME MORE. METH.   EVERY DAY I KEPT TELLING THEM, YA, I'LL GO BACK TO REHAB TOMORROW, OR THE NEXT DAY, OR THE NEXT.  ON THE 7DAY MY DEALER LEFT TO GO PICK UP HIS SISTER. WHILE THEY WHERE GONE I KEPT BEGGING HIS GIRLFRIEND TO SMOKE SOME MORE METH WITH ME. SHE KEPT TELLING ME SHE HAD ENOUGH. I KEPT BUGGING HER UNTIL SHE GAVE IN.  WHEN HE CAME HOME HE FOUND HER LAYING ON THE FLOOR, AND I WAS COMPLETELY OUT OF IT ON THE COUCH.  HE TOLD HIS SISTER TO TAKE ME BACK TO THE REHAB, AND HE WAS GOING TO TAKE HER TO THE HOSPITAL.  DAYS LATER I GET A PHONE CALL FROM HIM. HE TOLD ME THAT SHE HAD DIED. SHE HAD O.D. ON ALL THE THINGS WE WHERE DOING.  I CANT EXPLAIN THE GUILT I FELT. THAT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE ME! NOT HER. ME!  I WENT TO MY ROOM GOT DOWN ON MY KNEES AND PRAYED FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE I WAS A LITTLE GIRL.  I KNEW RIGHT THEN, GOD SAVED ME FOR A REASON.  I TRUELY BELIEVE IT'S TO HELP OTHER ADDICTS, SO MAYBE THEY WONT HAVE TO GO DOWN THE PATH I DID. THAT'S WHEN I TOOK THE FIRST STEP: I ADMITTED I WAS POWERLESS OVER DRUGS AND THAT MY LIFE HAD BECOME UNMANAGABLE.  I COMPLETED THE 30 DAY PROGRAM.   AND I'M VERY PROUD TO SAY THAT I HAVE BEEN CLEAN AND SOBER FOR 2YRS AND 2MON.  IN OUR LITTLE TOWN WE ONLY HAD 1 N.A. MEETING A WEEK.  I'VE HELPED TO GET MEETING GOING 7 DAYS A WEEK. I REALIZED DENISE WAS NOT A BAD PERSON. DENISE HAS A DISEASE CALLED ADDICTION.

A WEEK OUT OF REHAB I LEFT MY HUSBAND. HE IS SUCH A WONDERFUL MAN. EVERY TIME I LOOKED INTO HIS FACE, ALL I COULD SEE WAS PAIN THAT I HAD CAUSED. HE DESERVES NOTHING BETTER THEN THE BEST. I WAS'NT IT FOR HIM.  I LEFT HIM EVERYTHING, HE DESERVED IT. I TOOK MY CLOTHES, MY OLDER DAUGHTERS THINGS, AND HALF OF MY 2 YOUNGER GIRLS THINGS. I'M VERY HAPPY TO SAY THAT WE ARE VERY GOOD FRIENDS.

THINGS WHERE GOING GREAT. I FELT THE PEACE AND SERENITY INSIDE OF ME. A FEELING I NEVER FELT BEFORE. I WENT BACK TO WORK, I BOUGHT A HOUSE. ME A HOUSE! BY MYSELF.

AFTER A YEAR THINGS STARTED TO GO DOWNHILL. WE GOT A NEW BOSS. THE BOSS WOULD HIT ON ME ALL THE TIME. I'D TELL HIM I WAS'NT INTERESTED. BUT HE WOULD KEEP PURSUING ME. UNTIL I MENTIONED SEXUAL HARRASSMENT. THEN HE CHANGED. (WHEN I CAME BACK TO WORK I HAD TO SIGN A LAST CHANCE AGREEMENT, MEANING I COULDNT MISS ALOT OF DAYS LIKE I HAD BEFORE, AND A FEW OTHER MINOR THINGS)  MY BOSS WOULD YELL AT ME IN FRONT OF MY FELLOW CO-WORKERS, TRY TO WRITE ME UP FOR EVERYTHING LITTLE THING HE COULD FIND. HE EVEN PLANTED THINGS TO TRY TO GET ME IN TROUBLE.  IT GOT TO THE POINT THAT I WOULD HAVE TO TAKE AN ANXIETY PILL, BEFORE I WENT TO WORK, CUZ I KNEW AS SOON AS HE GOT THERE, HE WAS HEADING STRAIGHT TO ME TO YELL ABOUT SOMETHING.  I STARTED TO HAVE REALLY BAD ANXIETY ATTACKS AND PAIN ATTACKS.  WHICH GOT SO BAD I STARTED TO HAVE SEIZURES AGAIN.  I HAD NOT HAD A SEIZURE IN LITTLE OVER A YEAR. I STARTED TO MISS ALOT OF WORK. THESE WHERE GROUNDS FOR MY BOSS TO FIRE ME.  I TALKED TO MY UNION REP, AND HE ADVISED ME, THE BEST THING FOR ME TO DO WAS TO GO OUT ON DISABILITY.  THE POST OFFICE DOESNT WANT TO LOOK BAD, BY TRYING TO FIRE A PERSON WHO IS DISABLED. SO THEY PUT ME ON LONG TERM LEAVE UNTIL MY DISABILITY CAME THREW.  THIS WAS AUG, 05 THIS IS ALSO WHEN I APPLIED FOR DISABILITY. A YEAR LATER, IVE BEEN DENIED AND AM NOW APPEALING IT. I,VE WORKED FOR THE POST OFFICE FOR 10YRS. I WAS DEVASTATED.

THIS IS WHEN MY DEPRESSION STARTED. IT IS VERY HUMILIATING TO BE 33 AND HAVING TO GO ON DISABILITY.  HERE I AM IN A NEW HOME, KIDS TO SUPPORT. AND NO INCOME COMEING IN. I'VE ALLWAYS TOOK PRIDE THAT I SUPPORTED MY KIDS THERE WHOLE LIVES.  I CANT EVEN GET STATE ASSISTANCE, BECAUSE I OWN A HOME. THAT UPSETS ME SO BAD, I'VE WORKED MY BUTT OFF SINCE I WAS 18, I'VE WORKED REALLY HARD FOR THE THINGS I HAVE NOW. BECAUSE I'VE GOT THEM SINCE I SOBERED UP,  WHICH MEANS ALOT TO ME.   I KNOW WOMEN WHO NEVER WORK AND GET STATE ASSISTANCE, YET THE STATE CANT HELP ME OUT.  PLEASE DONT GET ME WRONG IM NOT BASHING THE WOMEN. IM UPSET WITH THE SYSTEM.  THIS DID NOT HELP MY SEIZURES AT ALL.  I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO PULL MY RETIREMENT OUT. SO I COULD TAKE CARE OF MY FAMILY.   GOD IS WATCHING OVER ME AND MY GIRLS, THAT MONEY HAS PROVIDED AND TOOKEN CARE OF US FOR ALLMOST A YEAR. ITS NOW DEPLETED.

THREE MONTHS LATER I FOUND OUT I HAD THE BEGINING STAGES OF CANCER IN MY UTERUS. AND NEEDED SURGURY.   MY MOM WHO WAS EMBARRESSED TO HAVE A RECOVING DRUG ADDICT DAUGHTER, HAD TURNED THE WHOLE FAMILY AGAINST ME. EXCEPT MY DAD, AND 1 OF MY SISTERS. ESTHER AND HER MY WONDERFUL BRO-IN-LAW.    SHE WOULD MAKE UP HORRIBLE LIES ABOUT ME TO THE FAMILY AND TO MY KIDS.  I FINALLY CONFRONTED HER, TO MAKE AMENDS. FOR THE PAIN I CAUSED HER.  SHE DID NOT ACCEPT MY AMEND. I JUST MADE HER EVEN MORE MAD.  SHE LEFT TO GO TO HAWAII WHERE SHE IS FROM FOR AWHILE TO GET AWAY, SHE SAID SHE COULD NOT STAND TO BE AROUND ME ANYMORE.  SHE LEFT THE DAY BEFORE MY SURGURY.  MY MOM BROKE MY HEART.  I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE DOWN AT LEAST 8WKS, BUT DAYS LATER AFTER MY SURGURY, MY DAD FOUND OUT HE HAD TO HAVE MASSIVE HEART SURGURY. THEY GAVE HIM A 30% CHANCE SURVIVAL RATE.  MOM STILL WOULD NOT COME HOME. I HAD TO, NO I WANTED TO TAKE HIM TO ALL HIS APPOINTMENTS AND TESTS HE NEEDED TO GET DONE.   IT SEEMED LIKE EVERYTIME I WOULD PICK MYSELF BACK UP, I WOULD GET SLAMMED DOWN WITH SOMETHING ELSE BAD.(I REMEMEBER SAYING, GOD IS REALLY TESTING ME, I KNOW NOW THAT IS NOT TRUE) I EVEN REMEMBER SAYING HOW COULD THINGS GET ANY WORSE.  WELL THEY DID. AND WHAT HAPPENED NEXT HAS DESTROYED ME, MY OLDEST DAUGHTER,MY DAD, THE WHOLE FAMILY.

ON THANKSGIVING DAY, MY OLDEST TOLD ME SHE WAS PREGNENT. I WAS HURT AND UPSET.  SHE GOT PREGNENT BY HER FIRST REAL BOYFRIEND, AND AS SOON AS HE FOUND OUT HE SKIPPED STATE.  HOW WAS I GOING TO PROVIDE FOR A BABY, WHEN I DONT KNOW HOW I WAS GOING TO PROVIDE FOR US.  THESE NEXT WORDS THAT I SAID TO MY DAUGHTER AND HER REPLY WILL HAUNT ME FOREVER: I ASKED HER TO GET AN ABORTION, AND SHE CALLED ME A BABY KILLER.(I PRAY EVERY NIGHT FOR GOD'S FORGIVENESS AND MY DAUGHTER'S FOR SAYING THAT)  I TOOK HER TO HER FIRST O.B. APPT. AND WHEN I HEARD THE BABYS HEART BEAT, I FEEL IN LOVE. I KNEW THEN THAT BABY WAS'NT GOING ANYWHERE BUT HOME WITH HIS MOM. SHE WAS 31/2 MONTHS ALONG. IT BREAKS MY HEART TO THINK SHE HAD TO KEEP IT A SECRET FOR SO LONG.  WE FOUND OUT SHE WAS HAVING A BOY. THE FIRST BOY IN THE FAMILY. I HAD ONLY THE THREE GIRLS, AND MY DAD ONLY HAD ME. MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS ARE FROM MY MOM'S PREVIOUS MARRIAGE.  WHEN WE FOUND OUT ABOUT MY DAD'S CONDITION, MY OLDEST MOVED IN WITH HIM, UNTIL MY MOM CAME HOME, TO KEEP HIM COMPANY, I COULDNT STAND THE THOUGHT OF HIM BEING ALONE.  THEY BECAME VERY CLOSE.  SHE SURPRISED MY DAD WITH ONE OF THE GREATEST GIFTS. SHE ASKED HIM IF  IT WOULD BE O.K. IF SHE GAVE HER SON MY DADS LAST NAME. BECUASE SHE KNOWS THAT WHEN MY DAD DIES SO DOES THE BATES LINE.  THAT MEANT SO MUCH TO MY DAD, I STILL DONT THINK SHE FULLY UNDERSTANDS HOW MUCH THAT MEANT.  THE FIRST PART OF JANUARY MY MOM CAME HOME, SO I GOT MY DAUGHTER BACK. HER FEELINGS TOWARDS ME STILL HAD NOT CHANGED.

ON FEB 25, 06 MY DAUGHTER WENT INTO PREMATURE LABOR. SHE WAS LITTLE OVER 7MONTHS. I RUSHED HER DOWN TO THE ONLY HOSPITAL IN TOWN(1ST BIG MISTAKE, WE HAVE THE WORST HOSPITAL IN THE WORLD)  THE DR KICKED ME OUT OF THE ROOM WHILE THEY DID AN ULTASOUND. I THOUGHT THAT WAS KIND OF WEIRD THAT HE DID THAT. BUT I WAS IN SUCH SHOCK, IT WAS ALLMOST LIKE MY BRAIN WAS JUST NUMB.  WHEN THEY LET ME BACK IN, HE EXPLAIN THAT, THE SAC THAT THE BABY IS IN, IS BULGING OUT OF THE UTURES, AND THAT HE WAS ALSO BREECH.  HE SAID THAT BEST CHANCE OF SURVIVAL WAS TO DO AN EMERGENCY C-SECTION.  HE CALLED LIFE FLIGHT TO TAKE HIM AS SOON AS HE WAS BORN, BECAUSE THEY WHERE NOT EQUIPPED TO TAKE CARE OF A PREMIE.  I FELT LIKE THIS WAS ALL A BAD DREAM, OH HOW I WISH IT REALLY WAS. OH HOW I WISH!  THEY ALLOWED ME TO BE IN THE O.R. ROOM WITH HER. THEY HAD A SHEET UP ABOVE MY DAUGTERS HEAD SO SHE COULD NOT SEE. BUT THEY PUT MY CHAIR FACEING STRAIGHT AT THE TABLE. I COULD SEE EVERYTHING.   WHAT I SAW DURING THE SURGURY IS FOREVER EMBEDED IN MY BRAIN, I'LL NEVER FORGET, EVER!   LIFE FLIGHT ARRIVED, GOT THERE THINGS SET UP, NOW WE WHERE JUST WAITING FOR THE ANATHESEOLIGIST TO ARRIVE. WE WAITED 45MIN FOR HIM TO ARRIVE THEN TOOK ANOTHER 15MIN FOR HIM TO GET THINGS SET UP.    1 HOUR, THAT'S NOT RIGHT!

THE DR. STARTED THE SURGURY, HE CUT HER HIP TO HIP. REACHED HIS HANDS IN AND COULD NOT REACH HIM.  HE THEN CUT HER UPWARD, REACHED IN AND STILL COULD NOT GET TO HIM, HE CUT UP A LITTLE FURTHER, TRIED AGAIN. STILL COULD NOT REACH HIM. HE THEN CUT HER WITH BANDAGE SCIRRORS.(I ALLWAYS THOUGHT THEY WHERE SAFETY SCIRRORS TO BE USED ON THE OUTSIDE OF THE BODY)  HE THEN GRABED A J-HOOK( A J-HOOK IS A LONG BAR SHAPED LIKE A J AT ONE END.  HE STUCK IT IN HER INCISION AND HAD THE NURSE PULL THE BAR TOWARDS MY DAUGHTERS HEAD. HE REACHED IN HER STOMACH AGAIN, AND COULD NOT GET TO HIM.  HE THEM GRABED ANOTHER J-HOOK PUT IT ON THE OTHER END OF THE INCISION AND HAD ANOTHER NURSE PULL TOWARDS HER HEAD.  NOW MY DAUGHTERS STOMACH IS STRECTCHED WIDE OPEN.  HE REACHED IN AGAIN AND COULD NOT GET TO HIM. HE GRABED SOME SCISSORS AND CUT THE PLACENTA. ALL OF A SUDDEN, BLOOD JUST POURED OFF THE TABLE.  IT WAS SO BAD IT SPLASHED UP TO MY KNEES, MY SHOES WHERE COVERED IN BLOOD.  I COULD SEE THE PANIC IN THE DR.S FACE  HE YELLED FOR ANOTHER NURSE TO GO UP BY MY DAUGHTERS HEAD AND PUSH DOWNWARD RIGHT BELOW HER BREAST'S, HE WAS YELLING PUSH DOWN HARDER. THEN FINALLY HE CAME OUT WITH MY GRANDSON. HE WAS BLACK, FROM LACK OF OXYGEN, BECAUSE THE DR TOOK SO LONG TO GET HIM OUT.  HE HANDED SIERUZ(MY GRANDSON) OVER TO THE LIFE FLIGHT TEAM.  TIME STOOD STILL WHILE THEY WHERE WORKING ON HIM. THEY FINALLY GOT HIM BREATHING, GOT A VENTALATOR IN. ONE OF THE LIFE FLIGHT TEAM MEMBERS TURNED AND LOOKED AT ME AND GAVE ME A THUMBS UP.  A EXTRA FILL IN NURSE FROM THE HOSPITAL, WALKED OVER AND STEPED ON THE VENTALATOR TUBE AND PULLED IT OUT.  I COULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT I JUST SAY.  THE LIFE FLIGHT TEAM, GOT IT BACK IN. GOT HIM HOOKED UP TO WIRES AND TUBES AND PUT HIM IN A INCUBATOR.  THEY WHEELED HIM OVER TO MY DAUGHTER FOR HER TO GLANCE IN FOR A FEW MINUTES. THEN THEY LEFT.  I ASKED MY DAUGHTER WHAT SHE WANTED ME TO DO, STAY THERE WITH HER, OR GO TO THE UOFU WHERE THEY WHERE TAKING MY GRANDSON.  SHE LOOKED AT ME, WITH TEARS ROLLING DOWN HER FACE, AND SAID THESE WORDS THAT I WILL TREASURE ALLWAYS.  SHE SAID MOM: I WANT YOU TO BE WITH YOUR GRANDSON.  I BENT OVER AND JUST HUGGED HER, WITH ALL MY LOVE.... WE CRIED.  I GAVE HER A KISS ON THE FOREHEAD, TOLD HER THAT I LOVE HER VERY MUCH. AND I LEFT FOR THE HOSPITAL.  IT IS ABOUT A 45MIN DRIVE, THE LONGEST DRIVE EVER.

WHEN I LOOKED IN HIS INCUBATOR,  FOR THE FIRST TIME.  I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING SO PERCIOUS IN MY LIFE.  I WAS A GRANDMA. A VERY PROUD GRANDMA!  HE'S SO TINY,  HE WEIGHED 1PD 15OZS. AND WAS 13 IN. LONG.  MY TEARS WHERE JUST RUNNING OFF THE INCUBATOR. I ASKED THE NURSE IF I COULD STICK MY HAND IN.   I REACHED IN AND GRABED HIS LITTLE HAND, HE SQOOZE THE TIP OF MY FINGER.   I'LL NEVER FORGET THAT.   IT  JUST SO HAPPENED THAT THE NURSE THAT WAS ASSIGNED TO MY GRANDSON, I WENT TO SCHOOL WITH.  BLESS HER HEART, SHE TOOK THE TIME TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING THAT WAS GOING ON. ANSWERED ALL MY QUESTIONS.  I NEVER LEFT HIS SIDE FOR TWO DAYS. THE ONLY TIME I LEFT WAS TO CALL MY DAUGHTER TO SEE HOW SHE WAS DOING, AND TO TELL HER HOW HER SON WAS, AND WHEN I'D TRY TO EAT SOMETHING.  I HAVE NEVER FELT SO ALONE IN MY LIFE, BEING AT THE HOSPITAL BY MYSELF. I FELT SO TORN.  I WANTED MY FAMILY TO BE THERE WITH MY DAUGHTER FOR SUPPORT.

IT WAS LATE THE SECOND NIGHT WHEN THE NURSE, TOLD ME THAT SIERUZ WAS LOOSING BLOOD, AND THEY WERE NOT SURE WHERE THE BLOOD WAS GOING. SHE SAID THAT THEY THINK ITS GOING TO HIS BRAIN, AND THAT THEY WHERE GOING TO DO A BRAIN SCAN. THE NEXT AFTERNOON.  I LEFT THE UOFU AT 7:00AM, (THE THIRD DAY)   DROVE HOME TOOK A SHOWER, GRABBED SOME CLOTHES FOR ME AND MY DAUGHTER. AND LEFT TO GO PICK HER UP.  WHEN I WALKED IN HER ROOM, SHE WAS CRYING SO HARD, SO COULD HARDLY TALK. SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH SIERUZ'S DR, AND THEY HAD THE RESULTS BACK FROM THE BRAIN SCAN, AND IT WAS NOT GOOD. MY HEART INSTANTLY SANK. ALL I HAD ON MY MIND WAS TO HORRAY AND GET MY DAUGHTER REUNITED WITH HER SON.  WE LEFT ALL HER THINGS THERE I TOLD THE NURSES ID BE LATER TO GET THEM.

WHEN WE ARRIVED, THE LOOK ON HER FACE WHEN SHE SAW HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME, I'LL NEVER FORGET. THE TEARS JUST ROLLING OFF HER CHEEKS.  THE DR'S CAME OVER, SAT US DOWN AND EXPLAIN THAT THEY RATE BRAIN BLEEDS FROM 1-4 4 BEING THE WORST.  THEY SAID SIERUZ WAS A #4. ONE OF THE WORST CASES THEY HAD SEEN. THEY TOLD HER THAT THEY COULD TRY TO SAVE HIM, BUT HE WOULD BE ON A VENTALATOR FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE.  HE'D NEVER TALK,WALK.   SHE TURNED HER HEAD TO ME CRYING, WE BOTH WHERE, THEN SHE TURNED TO THE DR'S AND SAID: I DO NOT WANT MY SON TO SUFFER.   THEY SAID THAT IS THE MOST UNSELFISH THING A MOM CAN DECIDE FOR HER CHILD.  DURING THE TWO DAYS, I WONDERED TO MYSELF, IF IT EVER CAME DOWN TO THIS, WOULD SHE BEABLE TO MAKE THE RIGHT DECISSION?  WELL IT WASNT HER IT WAS ME. I DID WANT TO BE SELFISH, THIS WAS SO UNFAIR. I KEPT TELLING THEM THERE HAS GOT TO BE SOMETHING THEY CAN DO FOR HIM, I ASKED OVER AND OVER. UNTIL FINALLY THE WHEELED IN A COMPUTER, THEY SHOWED US A BABY WITH A #4 BRAIN BLEED, THEN THEY SHOWED US MY GRANDSON'S. OH MY GOSH, THE LITTLE GUY HAD SO MUCH PRESSURE IN HIS LITTLE HEAD, THAT IT WAS POKING HOLES THREW HIS BRIAN.  I KNEW THEN, THAT THIS WAS THE RIGHT DECISSION. BUT IT STILL DIDNT MAKE IT ANY EASIER.

THEY ARE NOT ENOUGH WORDS OR HUGS TO COMFORT MY DAUGHTER. IF I COULD TAKE HER PAIN ON TO MYSELF, I WOULD.  I WOULD TRADE MY LIFE FOR HIS.  MY EX-HUSBAND CAME UP WITH MY OTHER TWO. SO THEY COULD SAY GOOD-BYE TO THERE NEPHEW. MY PARENTS ALSO CAME UP.

THEY PUT US IN A PRIVATE ROOM SO WE COULD HAVE SOME PRIVACY. MY DAUGHTER GOT TO SPEND 17 GLOURIOUS HOURS WITH HIM. SHE GOT TO GIVE HIM HIS FIRST BATH, GOT HIM DRESSED IN HIS FIRST OUTFIT. CHANGE HIS DIAPER. I'M SO GREATFUL SHE GOT THE CHANCE TO DO THESE THINGS FOR HER SON.  I SAT NEXT TO HER WHILE SHE HELD HIM, SHE LOOKED OVER EVERY INCH ON HIS LITTLE BODY AT LEAST 1000 TIMES, EVERY STRAIND OF HAIR.  WHEN I HELD HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME, I PUT HIM UP TO MY FACE AND JUST BREATHED HIM IN.  EVERY NOW AND AGIAIN I WILL SMELL HIM.  I KNOW HE'S WATCHING OVER US.   EVERYBODY GOT THERE CHANCE TO HOLD HIM. AND LOVE ON HIM.  MY DAUGHTER WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN,  SHE COULD'NT EVEN WALK.  YET SHE NEVER LEFT HIS SIDE ONCE.

IT WAS 12:00 MIDNIGHT WHEN SHE DECIDED TO LET THEM TAKE THE VENTALTOR OUT. IT TOOK TWO HOURS FOR HIS LITTLE HEART TO STOP BEATING.  I CAN'T EXPLAIN TO YOU HOW HARD IT WAS, TO WATCH HIM GASPING FOR AIR, THE NURSE COMEING IN EVERY 5-10MIN TO LISTEN TO HIS HEART, SHE'D LISTEN,  LOOK UP AT ME, SHAKE HER HEAD NO. THEN WALK BACK OUT OF THE ROOM.  EVERY TIME SHE CAME IN, EVERYONE WENT SILENT, WHILE WE WAITED FOR HER TO LISTEN. WHEN SHE SAID SHE COULD NOT HEAR A HEARTBEAT, AT THE VERY MOMENT A BIG PIECE OF ME DIED TO. THE DR CAME IN, LISTENED, AND PERNOUNCED HIM GONE.  HE DIED AT 2:05A.M.  EVERYONE LEFT SOON AFTER, AND IT WAS JUST ME, MY DAUGHTER, AND MY GRANDSON.  I HELD HER, WHILE SHE HELD HIM, AND WE CRIED TOGETHER. THIS WAS JUST OUR TIME WITH HIM. THEN I SAT DOWN ON THE COUCH AND IT WAS JUST HER AND HER SON. I WASNT RUSHING HER I WANTED HER TO TAKE ALL THE TIME SHE WANTED.   IT WAS ABOUT 6:00 IN THE MORNING WHEN SHE TOLD ME: MOM, IM TIRED, I'M READY TO GO HOME.   I TOLD HER O.K. BABY, I'LL TAKE YOU HOME.  I WILL NEVER FORGET HOW I FELT INSIDE WHEN SHE HANDED MY GRANDSON, BACK TO THE NURSE.   I KNEW THAT WAS THE LAST TIME I EVER WAS GOING TO HOLD HIM EVER.  IT RAINED OVER THE WHOLE STATE OF UTAH THAT DAY.  I BELIEVE IT WAS GOD MOURNING WITH US.  GODS TEARS, WAS THE RAIN.

I FEEL VERY TRUELY BLESSED, THAT I GOT TO SPEND THREE GLOURIOUS DAYS WITH MY GRANDSON. I WILL TREASURE IT FOREVER IN MY HEART. "ALLWAYS"   I ONLY WISH MY DAUGHTER COULD OF GOT THE OPPORTUNITY LIKE I DID. IN THE SHORT THREE DAYS OF HIS LITTLE LIFE. HE TOUCHED ALOT OF PEOPLE. THE WHOLE HIGH SCHOOL WHERE MY DAUGHTER ATTENDED, WHO MEMORIAL PATCHES ON THERE CLOTHES FOR WEEKS.

GOD WAS LOOKING OVER US, WHEN WE ARRIVED HOME, I CHECKED THE MAIL, AND MY INCOME TAX CHECK HAD CAME IN. THIS IS WHAT I USED TO PAY FOR THE FUNERAL. IF  IT WOULDNT OF CAME IN, I HAD NO IDEA HOW I WAS GOING TO PAY FOR THE FUNERAL.

4 DAYS AFTER THE FUNERAL, MY DAD HAD TO GO IN FOR HIS HEART SURGURY. THE SURGURY WENT WELL. BUT HE LIKE MYSELF AND MY DAUGHTER ARE STILL HAVEING A REALLY HARD TIME WITH MY GRANDSONS DEATH.

I HAVE NO INCOME COMEING IN. I HAD TO TAKE A LOAN OUT AGAINST MY CAR.  MY HOME IS STARTING TO GO INTO FORECLOSER.  OUR HOME MEANS SO MUCH TO ME, THIS IS WHERE MY NEW JOURNEY IN LIFE STARTED. THIS IS WHERE, THE MEMORIES OF MY GRANDSON ARE. I'M LOOSING MY CAR.  EVERYTHING I'VE WORKED SO HARD FOR,  I'M LOOSING. AND ITS TEARING ME UP INSIDE.  I'M PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY DRAINED. I DONT KNOW WHERE ELSE TO TURN FOR HELP.

WHAT I'VE BEEN THREW IN A YEAR TIME,  IS WHAT SOME PEOPLE, GO THREW IN A LIFE TIME. AND I SHARE IN MEETNGS, IF I CAN GO THREW ALL OF THESE THINGS CLEAN AND SOBER. THEN ANYONE CAN.STAY SOBER NO MATTER WHAT LIFE THROWS THERE WAY.

I'M GRACIOUSLY ASKING YOU KIND PEOPLE. FOR HELP, HELP TO SAVE OUR HOME. AND THE ONLY VECHILE I HAVE.   YOUR KINDNESS, TO KEEP ME AND MY GIRLS IN YOUR PRAYERS, ESPICALLY FOR MY BEAUTIFUL 16YR OLD WHO HAS GONE THREW, WHAT PARENTS FEAR MOST, THE DEATH OF THERE OWN CHILD.  I SO LONG FOR THAT PEACE AND SERENITY BACK.   LET GO- LET GOD

THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ MY STORY.
GOD BLESS TO YOU ALL
DENISE GORDON
873 WEST 770 SOUTH
TOOELE, UTAH  84074
435-843-5317
435-849-2168

  We have recently become two months behind on our house payments. This is due to the loss of a job and mounting doctors bills. We haven't been able to catch up.
 With a new job, (currently applying) and becoming current on our mortgage due, we would be able to keep our home and maintian our payments. We just can't get it caught up on our own.
 With any help we are hoping to make it happen. Our family of six would appreciate the help. Thankyou for considering.

I am a mother of three.  I have a fifteen year old, a four year old and a two year old.  My husband left last month and took all the money and our only running vehicle.  I was trying to do an online business to try and make a little extra money to help out, but that didn't work out very well.  I no longer have the money to make products to sell.  I haven't been able to find work or help with grants around this small town.  They are shutting off our electric today and I'll have an eviction notice tommorrow.  I'm not sure what to do.  I will be having a yard sell this weekend to try and make a little extra money, other than that, I'm lost.  I've already applied for work at all the places in town even places I know I don't qualify for.  Without electric, I can't hope to get a call for work and without a home, my children will have to go to foster care.  If you know of any way to help, please let me know.

     I am not a person who likes to ask for money, but I have had a resant loss of job in which I was making plenty of money.  Then the day came and was layed off, now I am 8 month behind on my morgage the roof is coming down and I have missed 8 months of child support payments just in time for my daughters 8th grade graduation.  I know this sounds like a sob story but there is more.  My son had to have his appendix removed and since I am respnsible for the medical bills I now have a 20k debt that I must also pay.  But my main reason for asking for help is to just get caught up on the child support payments.  I was in the military for 12 years and was put out on medical discharge for back injuries, after the military I was lucky enough to land a great job, but like I said I was laid off now I work for a company that only pays $8.00 an hour.  I have a 1250.00 dollar morgage and my child support is 525. per month so as you can see it is hard to get by but I can do it I just need help for the past 8 months to get caught up again.  Yes I would get a loan but my credit score dropped from 750 to a 450 in a matter of months becuase of failer to pay morgage.  Please I am willing to help others once I get back on my feet if I could jsut get some help to get there. PLEASE email me at richard_crump@yahoo.com Please if there are any people out there who have ever fallen behind with there children then you know how I am feeling right now.  I have pictures if anyone wants to see them.

Please help us get our life back on track. We may be about to lose everything and don't know what to do.

My wife had to leave her job due to illness and our finances collapsed. Before things got out of hand I went for advice and was told I must seek help from my bank. I asked my bank for advice and was told if I didn't accept their financial assistance I would probably have to go bankrupt. As I thought it was the only option I accepted, only to find their interest rates higher than the ones I had with my previous creditors.

I eventually asked for assistance from a debt management company who I was with for 3 years. They promised to get my interest frozen and persuaded my creditors to accept lower payments. 3 years on I've paid out over 12,000 pounds in this agreement only to find my debts are larger than they were before. The interest hadn't been frozen at all. I only found out because one of my creditors sent me a statement by mistake. Under the agreement, the creditors usually sent all correspondence to the debt management company.

I took on a 2nd job some time ago which took my working hours up to more than 60 a week. On top of that, I've found out I've got a disease in my spine which makes my bones fuse together. Although working helps the condition because I need to keep mobile, too much work makes it worse. I need to reduce my hours but can't afford to.

My wife managed to fight her illness and get another job but it's getting worse again and I'm beginning to fear for her safety. She's recently heard she may soon be made redundant so the pressure on her is enormous.

We've worked so hard to try and overcome our problems but every time we make any headway, we just keep getting knocked back down again.

On top of this, over the last 3 years we've received over 600 letters threatening action against us or demanding immediate settlement, and received many more demanding phone calls, even though we've been making our payments. We're now too scared to answer the phone or to answer the door to anyone. The fear and stress are overwhelming.

We have tried for an IVA but even this was rejected, the creditors just wont stop hounding us.

We feel totally ashamed to be in this position, and I feel even more ashamed for posting this notice. It really is a last resort.

Although we accept responsibility for getting into debt, we've had a lot of help to make it worse - bad advice, being misled about the frozen interest and the interest itself, sometimes it's extortionate.

I'm not sure if anyone can help, I think we've gone too far down the line now, but if you can help in any way we would be eternally grateful. My email address is: wanderingsid45@yahoo.co.uk

Thank you for taking the time to read my message.

Sid

P.S. My wife will kill me if she finds out I've done this.

Hi, my name is Mike.

   After a week of constant headache’s and high fever (above 104 degrees), I finally went to see the Doctor. I thought I had caught a serious flu or cold. The Doctor looked at me and took my temp, it was 104.1. He sent me to the ER right away. At the ER, they gave me some Tylenol and took a blood test and a chest x-ray. The ER Doctor came back and said that I have a serious pneumonia in my lungs and that my blood results did not look good from the tests.
    After talking to the Doctor about some of my symptoms he also ordered a Cat Scan of my head. The Cat Scan came back OK, so we talked about the blood test and pneumonia. They admitted me to the Hospital right away and started me on IV’s and oxygen. My blood test showed that my red blood cells, platelet’s and white blood cells were extremely low and I was severely anemic. My blood counts continued to drop while I was there and I was transferred to the ICU.
   After some more tests- Bone marrow, Spinal tap, Bronchostipy (tubes down into lungs to get samples), more x-rays and more blood tests, they diagnosed me with a rare form of Leukemia. Hairy Cell Leukemia was the name and it only affects about 500 people a year in the US. As my condition started to deteriorate , the Doctor said that I would not make it more than a couple of hours. He gave me a couple of shots in the stomach to help my blood cells as the leukemia was stopping my bone marrow from producing the required blood cells. Those shots were neupogen and eupogen.
   After a lot of prayers from friends and family, and those shots, my condition started to get better. I continued to receive the shots daily in the stomach. I was in the ICU for approx 9 days and in the Hospital for 2 weeks. I was finally released, but my blood counts were still lower than they should be and the pneumonia was not all cleared. I am still getting the shots weekly now and am taking medications for the pneumonia.
   Being self employed and sick for a couple of months, we didn’t have health insurance or much money saved up. The hospital bills came to approx. $135,000. We continue to get bills from other labs and doctors. I will have to be on Chemotherapy for a while and keep getting updated blood tests and bone marrow tests to see how the leukemia is doing.
   I am writing this to ask anyone out there to open up their hearts and wallets to help out. I am a 39 year old husband and father. I have 2 beautiful daughters and a beautiful/wonderful wife of 16 years. We just need some financial help until I get back on my feet again so we don’t start losing our home and belongings. Thank you for taking the time to read this and my situation. All donations can be sent to;

Mike
559 Silverleaf  Dr.
Oroville, Calif. 95966

Hi, i am 21 years old and i currently attend Purdue University... but i am having some financial difficulties at the present moment and i really need some help.  I am late on my rent and i am getting evicted if i don't give my landlords $2000 by  tomorrow!  i dont have this money or else i would just pay them.  I feel so ashamed having to ask for help but i have no other choice.  I know that someday i will beable to repay the kindness to others so please help me if you can!